I'm No Angel: From Victoria's Secret Model to Role Model

I'm No Angel: From Victoria's Secret Model to Role Model

by Kylie Bisutti


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In December 2011, 21-year-old Victoria’s Secret Runway Angel Kylie Bisutti stunned the fashion industry when she chose faith over fame and fortune and made the switch from supermodel to role model.

In I’m No Angel, Kylie shares her story—from her early years as she struggled to make it big in the cutthroat world of modeling, to her “big break” winning the Victoria’s Secret Runway Angel competition, to the disillusionment and spiritual warfare that followed. After finally realizing that she could no longer reconcile her career with her Christian beliefs, she surrendered her life to God and dedicated her life to preaching a message of modesty and inner beauty.

Along the way, Kylie talks about her personal struggles with inadequacy, low self-esteem, and her near-constant quest for approval in a world where you can never be thin enough, pretty enough, or sexy enough. She helps readers understand that true beauty lies within and that real fulfillment comes from knowing, loving, and serving Christ.

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ISBN-13: 9781414391892
Publisher: Tyndale House Publishers
Publication date: 05/01/2014
Pages: 304
Sales rank: 761,899
Product dimensions: 5.40(w) x 8.10(h) x 1.00(d)

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I'm No Angel

From Victoria's Secret Model to Role Model

By Kylie Bisutti, Stephanie Rische


Copyright © 2013Kylie Bisutti
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ISBN: 978-1-4143-8309-5




We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.


FEBRUARY 7, 2012

"Dad just texted me again." My husband, Mike, glanced up from his phone, shaking his head in surprise. "He says Dr. Phil called. Anderson Cooper wants you on his show. Rosie O'Donnell wants to talk to you, and someone from Inside Edition just left a message for you at the house."

What's going on? I wondered. Why is everyone suddenly so interested in me?

Before I could even finish my thought, my phone rang. It was my agent, Sabrina.

"Kylie, where are you?" She sounded a little frantic.

"I'm in Fargo, North Dakota, with Mike. What's going on? All these talk shows and news outlets keep calling Mike's dad, looking for me."

"You're all over the news, Kylie!" Sabrina sounded shocked that I had no idea what was happening.

I'd been traveling with Mike on business, and we hadn't been online or watched much TV for the past few days. Besides, it had been months since I'd stopped modeling. I figured the media had completely forgotten about me—and frankly, I was fine with that.

"Apparently the interview you did with FoxNews.com about quitting Victoria's Secret to become a Proverbs 31 wife went live today. It's all over the news, and Good Morning America has offered to fly you to New York today so you can be on their show tomorrow morning." She paused, waiting for me to respond. I just stared at Mike, stunned.

"Kylie? How soon can you get to an airport?"

I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the front window. Dressed in a puffy ski coat and hunting boots, with no makeup and my hair pulled back in a ponytail, I was about as far from media ready as I could get. And there wasn't a single thing in my suitcase that was going to be an improvement.

"Well ... we're about four hours from the nearest airport," I said. "And I really didn't bring anything with me that I could wear on TV."

"That's okay," Sabrina assured me. "Just get yourself on a plane. When you arrive, we can shop for something appropriate. I'll bring a few backup outfits just in case. See you in a few hours." And before I even could respond, she hung up.

"Well?" Mike asked.

I looked at him and sighed. "I guess I'm going to New York."

God, let me get this right.

* * *

I didn't have much time to ponder the whirlwind of events. Within a matter of hours, I was on my way to New York. I threw a few things into my suitcase, and then Mike drove me to the airport.

As I settled into my seat on the plane, I closed my eyes, trying to rest for what was bound to be an emotionally and physically exhausting couple of days. But I was too wired to sleep—there was just so much to take in. In addition to appearing on Good Morning America, I would be on five other shows before the day's end.

My mind was racing. I thought I'd stepped out of the limelight when I gave up modeling. How could one little blog post lead to all of this? Does the media want to hear about a Proverbs 31 wife? Do they even know what that means?

I was used to media attention, but this was new territory. I opened my eyes and pulled out my Bible. Instead of sitting there worrying the entire flight, I figured I could get ready for the interviews by reading some of my favorite passages. I knew the stance I was taking in favor of modesty wouldn't be popular in certain circles—especially the modeling industry—and I wanted to make sure I was prepared. When my eyes skimmed over James 1:2-3, I couldn't help but smile: "Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow" (NLT).

Wow. How perfect is that? I thought. And suddenly it all started to make sense. The blog post, the media interest, the opportunity to share my story with the world. There was no question—God's fingerprints were all over this.

A quiet calm came over me as I leaned my head back and silently prayed that God would shine through me during every interview. As I shared my story, I wanted to reflect His wisdom, His compassion, His humility, and His love. Modeling had been about bringing attention to myself, but now I prayed that the focus would be on God and the work He was doing inside me.

After several hours of praying and reading God's Word from my airplane-seat sanctuary, I closed my eyes, flooded with a sense of peace. I knew that God would watch over me through each of the interviews and that He would give me each word I needed to say.

* * *

When I arrived in New York, Sabrina met me with enough outfits to accommodate all of my interviews. After looking through everything she'd brought, I opted for a basic black, knee-length dress for the GMA piece. The dress was simple and understated, and it reflected my new standards for modesty. But truth be told, I was far less concerned about my appearance than I was with my message.

My entire worldview had changed radically over the past six months, and I desperately wanted my interviews to reflect that. I had taken a self-imposed hiatus from modeling so I could concentrate my time and energy on studying the Bible, attending our church in Montana, and learning my true identity—who God had made me to be. The Kylie Bisutti who was about to step in front of those television cameras was an entirely different person from the one millions of people had watched strut down the Victoria's Secret runway two years before.

The difference in my outward appearance would be easy to see. No more spray tan. No more highlights or dyed hair. No false eyelashes or heavy makeup. And a much healthier figure. But it was the changes that had taken place inside me—my commitment to Christ and to my husband, my deeper grasp on all God had done for me, and my understanding that true beauty comes from within—that I wanted viewers to see.

While getting my hair and makeup done, I could feel my heart pounding. I was nervous. Even more nervous than I'd been before I stepped on the Victoria's Secret runway for the first time. But this was different. This was important. I knew there were thousands of young girls out there who were trapped in the same debilitating cycle I'd struggled to break free from for years. The never-ending battle to be thin enough. Pretty enough. Perfect enough. I knew what it was like to constantly chase an ideal that's impossible to achieve—an ideal that's not even real to begin with. I had learned that the hard way. I hoped that by sharing my story, I could spare these girls some of the heartache and misery I'd experienced.

Just then, the stylist doing my hair leaned in and whispered, "We're all rooting for you." I looked up and noticed he had a Scripture verse tattooed on his forearm. We exchanged smiles, and my nervousness subsided a fraction.

Thank You, God, for small mercies.

* * *

The energy in the studio was electric, and my hands still were shaking a bit as I was led to my seat next to George Stephanopoulos. We exchanged a few pleasantries, and then he asked, "Are you ready?"

I took a deep breath. "Yes. I'm ready." And so it began.

George opened the interview by complimenting me, but I knew what was coming. The questions were bound to get more difficult—and more pointed—as the interview progressed.

"Back in the Victoria's Secret model search in 2009, you were very determined to

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Table of Contents

Prologue ix

Chapter 1 All Things for Good 1

Chapter 2 Jackpot 11

Chapter 3 Sin City 17

Chapter 4 Bangkok or Bust 23

Chapter 5 Firsts 33

Chapter 6 A Second Chance 47

Chapter 7 New Beginnings 55

Chapter 8 Rude Awakening 59

Chapter 9 Eyes Wide Open 75

Chapter 10 Rebounding 85

Chapter 11 Desperate Measures 95

Chapter 12 The Price of Success 99

Chapter 13 Invisible 111

Chapter 14 Unexpected Blessings 117

Chapter 15 Finally, the Fairy Tale 131

Chapter 16 Mrs. Kylie Bisutti 145

Chapter 17 The Chance of a Lifetime 151

Chapter 18 The First Challenge 165

Chapter 19 Friends and Rivals 173

Chapter 20 Earning My Wings 183

Chapter 21 The Final Challenge 191

Chapter 22 Be Careful What You Wish For 201

Chapter 23 Déjà Vu 209

Chapter 24 The Last Push 225

Chapter 25 Truth and Consequences 233

Chapter 26 The Ultimate Walk 241

The Masters Makeover: 30 Days Beautiful You 247

Acknowledgments 289

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I'm No Angel: From Victoria's Secret Model to Role Model 4.1 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 55 reviews.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is an excellent book. The author does a great job of detailing the cut-throat world of professional modeling and how it conflicted with her Christian faith, to the point she left the life of fame and fortune behnind to live as a roll model.
Thursday4 More than 1 year ago
Kylie Bisutti began modeling professionally around age 13, and six years later won a Victoria's Secret modeling contest on national television. One year later, she announced that she would be leaving the modeling industry permanently due to conflicts with her Christian beliefs. I remember seeing the news stories, and finding the idea so unbelievable as to be laughable. How does one even become a lingerie model while professing christian beliefs? The two seem fairly incompatible. As always, the truth is more complicated than it appears, and in this book Kylie is given a platform to tell her story, uncensored by George Stephanopolis.  My critiques of this book are few, and make no real difference to Kylie's message. First, the writing style is about what you would expect from someone who finished high school through online courses while holding down a job and never attended college. Even with a co-writer parts read like a diary from junior high. This is not a high literary effort, it is a heart-felt one. Second, even with Kylie's (sometimes uncomfortable) honesty, it becomes fairly evident that this is far from a tell all. This is enough to get her point across, and as such, there are some things which go completely unexplained, and moments that could be described as plot holes. For example, we don't discover that her husband (whom she married at 18/19 years of age) is divorced with a son and is significantly older than her until nearly the end of the book. While that information is relevant to a biography, it isn't relevant to her message of internal beauty, so the information gets placed out of context and in a haphazard manner. Third, Kylie never really discusses her personal emotional damage resulting from working in the industry. She gives plenty of examples of the ways that others were harmed, and even tells stories of her own brushes with eating disorders, crash diets, and abuse, but the book leaves out the emotional impact of the occurrence then and the scars now. It isn't that I don't empathize or feel compassion for what she, and other models, have gone through, and I certainly don't think that they somehow deserve it, just that this book doesn't connect the heart to the situation. Kylie comes across looking as though she left the modeling world unscathed with a great husband and a healthy figure. Maybe it is too soon to tell, or maybe Kylie didn't feel ready to discuss that aspect of her experiences, but I wonder if some readers might walk away with the impression that, while modeling isn't "christian", it isn't necessarily a harmful lifestyle. Kylie is a beautiful girl who had it all by the world's standards and left it behind to follow her heart for God. That takes a lot of character. And for other young women who struggle with their appearance on a daily basis, it is comforting to know from an insider that the beauty they see touted on television and in print ads is artificial to the point of physically impossible. 
Nicnac63 More than 1 year ago
Kylie’s conversational tone of her book makes this an easy read. Her frankness is admirable and made an impact on me. What a strong and brave woman. After seeing Kylie’s story on television, I was eager to read her book. I think it’s a valuable read for teens, seeing as Kylie describes her insecurities etc., that many young ladies go through. She made many sacrifices, but those very sacrifices brought even greater blessings. Her story is engaging and honest. I enjoyed this quick read. As cliché as it sounds, true beauty isn’t what’s on the outside, it’s what and Who is within.
teenbooksjc More than 1 year ago
At first I thought “I’m No Angel” would be boring. However, the story went much deeper than that. I could really connect to Kylie Bisutti as well as her struggles and challenges. I’ve known several young ladies who struggle with body image, and it’s something many people struggle with. I know a few people who model and who admit it is a challenging lifestyle. The book was excellent, and I recommend it to anyone.
Kayla_Ellis More than 1 year ago
This book was a fantastic read! Kylie gives an honest outlook on the modeling industry and the struggles of girls in that industry. It is so beautiful to see her testimony unravel throughout the book! Read it!
lmbartelt More than 1 year ago
A compelling story of a young girl's journey from dreaming of being a model to hitting the big time in modeling and the pain she endured along the way. Kylie Bisutti has a unique experience to speak to women about beauty and the ugliness she saw and experienced on her way to becoming a Victoria's Secret angel. I appreciated her honesty and I was appalled at some of the behind-the-scenes antics of modeling. Her story is one of God's grace and transformation, and I'm grateful she decided to speak up about her experience. What an eye-opening account of the lengths the industry will go to, to give us a false picture of beauty. I borrowed this book from the library, but it would be worth buying for the 30-day devotional, on the topic of true beauty, included at the end.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I chose to read this book because the tile caught my eye. This book is a truly powerful testament of what Jesus can do in our lives if we simply let Him in. Te modeling field is definitely about beauty, but not the true beauty that Jesus gave us. We are called to be a Proverbs 31 woman and to lead a Godly life. Modeling us the devil in disguise. .
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This was an excellent account of the modeling industry's highs and lows. Kylie's story gives you a front row seat to all the action: From doing shows at a local mall to struttin your stuff for the big at the Victoria's Secret Angel competition. We follow Kylie through high school, to Thailand, to New York and to Cabo San Lucas where she gets married. Her husband is the true hero in this story. He supported Kylie through the whole competition and suffered in silence. He brought his prayers to Lord and asked for Kylie to see the light. I can see he really suffered through the whole photo shoot in the photographer's apartment in Brooklyn. Most men would have not handled that well. I'm so glad Kylie has decided to walk in her faith and trust the Lord Jesus. I wish her great success and almost every teenage girl I know is getting a copy of this book for Christmas.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book has a strange meaning. So she chose fame, beauty and like a million dollars for her beliefes. Not sayin thg there's anything wrong with that tho...
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Her Love for Jesus Overcame All I’m No Angel by Kylie Bisutti tells the story of a girl with the dream of becoming a Victoria’s Secret Angel, from her first modeling headshots to walking the runway of her dreams. After winning that title, she decides to leave what she worked so hard to accomplish, to pursue her Christian beliefs and be faithful to what God had planned for her life.  This inspiring book continuously preaches the message of inner beauty and loving yourself. Through Bisutti’s experiences of ridiculous diets in order to please agents, being considered “fat” in the modeling industry, and being put into situations that were too mature for her to handle, she discovered that it isn’t someone’s outer appearance that makes them beautiful, but who they are on the inside. Not only did her growing relationship with Christ help her come to this realization, but the love of her dedicated and understanding husband, Mike. While not ecstatic about Kylie’s career choice, Mike supported her nonetheless; illustrating the beautiful image of what a relationship based on God is like. The message of being true to who you are was perfectly clear when Bisutti decided to follow her heart and give up the title of a Victoria’s Secret Angel. While the book was obviously not written by a professional writer, it was very enjoyable and easy to dive into, due to the relatable writing style. Reading this book feels more like listening to a friend than reading a memoir, which in this case, was acceptable. The context of the book allowed Bisutti to open her heart to the audience and share her unique experiences.  There were sections of the book that left me wanting more details, like her age during certain events and how much time elapsed between certain situations. Due to the absence of some details, the book moved quickly, which covered a lot of ground in order to portray her message, and in turn, gave her immense credibility on what life as a model is like. This is a book that every person can relate to. It isn’t just about modeling. It is about relationships, religion, growing up, peer pressure, eating disorders, and overcoming obstacles. The modeling industry isn’t sugar coated to make it look like this was a glamorous experience for Bisutti. She is honest about the media, and it is not only an inspirational story, but every reader will walk away having learned something amazing.  I would recommend Bisutti’s 30 Days to a More Beautiful You devotional, as it further shows the love Bisutti has for the Lord and her passion to share that beauty is found in Christ. 
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is a wonderful and encouraging read! As a 17 year old girl who's battled with insecurities for so long, this book brought light to so many biblical truths. Easy to read, and very heart-felt. I would recommend this book to anyone, regardless of age!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is a really great book.
book4children More than 1 year ago
Kylie takes the reader through her experiences as a model, from her first audition to the Victoria Secret runway and everything that came between. Her story was fascinating. It was eye opening. I didn't know that models got started so young. I was horrified at the things that these young girls were expected and pressured to do. I thought that America had laws against children being photographed in provocative poses without much (or anything) for clothing on. Kylie talks about her mistakes, her budding faith, and her hard work to get to the top of the modeling industry. She talks about how she compromised her beliefs in favor of her career. She tried to rationalize away the prickling of her conscience. As an outsider reading her story, I could see the blaring oxymoron that her life had become. On the one hand she was trying to be a good Christian and draw closer to God. On the other hand, she was selling sex. But it isn't easy to see those things when you are the person going through it. Kylie shares her struggles, her triumphs, and her epiphany when she realized that her two lives could never work together. She had to pick one or the other. This book is worth the read. Kylie shares her testimony about respecting yourself, your family, and God by dressing modestly and making sure your actions coincide with your beliefs. I work with a group of young girls in my church and Kylie's testimony gave me some great material to share with them. Hopefully her experience will help them understand the importance of respecting the beautiful bodies that God created for them. Content: The author shares her experiences, even the uncomfortable ones, but she manages to give the situation without going overboard on the details. It's pretty clean, but read it first if you are thinking of giving it to your teen.
RLubow More than 1 year ago
I’m No Angel is the shocking, insightful, and inspiring autobiography of a former model, Kylie Bisutti. Bisutti exposes the dangers of modeling—dangers such as comparison, insecurity, and compromise. She also discusses the lies presented by many advertisements display thin, full-haired, evenly-tanned models. This bold truth-telling makes I’m No Angel a must-read.  Bisutti is indeed a role model: as I read her book, I was challenged by her boldness, love for God, and defense of the truth. Furthermore, I appreciated her vulnerability in communicating her pain and sin. While I also appreciated that Bisutti emphasized the importance of inward beauty, I wish she would have written more (she did write some) about outward beauty—that humans are beautiful because we are made in God’s image by God Himself with intentionality and care.  I recommend I’m No Angel to every woman, not only young women. I urge women to read truth communicated by a young woman who has “set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, and in purity” (1 Timothy 4:12). 
Reli0 More than 1 year ago
I really enjoyed this book; it was easy to read and well-written.  Kylie really needed to adjust her perspective to be able to see modeling from God's point of view and I think she did well to see that and then to make the necessary changes.  That wasn't easy.  I just hope her message gets across to the young girl/ladies of today.  It's not all about being a size 0.  It's about living and honoring God with our heart, soul, and body.  
emetry More than 1 year ago
The moral message is encouraging for adolescent girls just entering their teenage years. The actual tone of the book is bothersome because you have an ex-underwear model who is basically wining over mere trifles compared to what other people have to face in their everyday lives.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I was intrigued by the behind-the-scenes look at the modeling industry. This book is written in an easy to read style, and I found it inspiring as Kylie shows her journey in following God.
Louisa_May More than 1 year ago
I was intrigued by Kylie's story from the first page.  This was a very well-written and thought-provoking memoir.  It touched my heart and completely captivated me.  I love reading nonfiction when it's written in a way that makes it as interesting as any fiction book, and this book was that way.  Highly recommend it!  Especially for anyone considering pursuing a modeling career, and any teenage girl who wants to be beautiful.
tatormc More than 1 year ago
Read as part of the Tyndale House Summer Reading Program and I liked it. It was an interesting look into an industry I'm not familiar with. Kylie is an excellent role model.
Miss_CindyH More than 1 year ago
I"m no Angel by Kylie Bisutti is an honest look at the modelling industry.  Written in an easy to read manner, it flows like a journal.  Kylie, though shy by nature, excelled at modeling and loved the job.  Unfortunately there were many parts of the lifestyle that she didn't like.  She shines a light on the industry. She honestly shared the cut-throat pressure to be thin enough, the dark side of "selling" sexuality, the partying lifestyle, and the competition.  Personally I thought she could have done more to develop the eating disorders and addictions that resulted in those she worked with.  I felt she skimmed over how the weight issue effected her.  
JeanieMNJL More than 1 year ago
A good read, I'm glad she shared her story. The 30-day spiritual beauty makeover was great. I enjoyed the references leading into each chapter.
Megan_Hilton More than 1 year ago
Ms. Bisutti's book give a very interesting look at the modeling world. I enjoyed learning about it and what it entails. However, she continually refers to not feeling right but never gives any in depth perspective on what she was feeling and what God was saying to her. It feels as if there is no true explanation. Then you add in her husband, whom she never seems really forthcoming about, and it is a strange story. Again, the modeling explanations and world are great. But she doesn't fully explain how she came to be led by God to turn her back on modeling. And she never deals with the financial aspects either. I was constantly wondering how she was supporting herself. However, her husband is somewhat "well-off" and perhaps that is why she felt she could walk away from a lucrative career. I applaud her decision, but I did not get much spiritual guidance from it, which is what I was hoping.
BeccaCarter More than 1 year ago
Lessons learned and shared I used to avoid non-fiction at almost any cost, preferring “made-up stories,” but I’ve grown to enjoy learning about others’ lives and the lessons they’ve learned, especially when those books are written by fellow Christians. This tale intrigued me and although I wished I could stop young Kylie from the path to fame that she chose, it was good to read her journey and see how God turned it into something beautiful rather than tragic – we hear too many of those stories in the news each year, lives cut short because of the lifestyle that goes along with being famous. The devotional book I read from Kylie is included at the end of her story and I’m encouraged that it will reach a wider audience because I do think they are great lessons for all women to read. And I hope that Kylie finds she has more to write someday!
BeachNana8 More than 1 year ago
I started reading "I'm No Angel" early today and couldn't put it down until I'd finished it. Each chapter held another crisis and God's redeeming hand. I hated it when Kylie was deceived by her first boy friend who tricked her into sex and rejoiced when she went to a week long Christian camp where she discovered her true identity in Christ. Her desire to be a model was balanced against one crisis after another as a model, such as starving herself to lose weight, saran wrap instead of clothes for pictures, glued on eye lashes that irritated the eyes and were not removable, agencies that folded leaving her broke or that paid only $6 a day. Finally she meets a great Christian guy and they fall in love and marry. Just as everything seems great, she gets the chance of a life time to become a Victoria's Secret Angel and decides to try. It was only after she had won that she became aware of what the cost was to her marriage and her faith in Christ. She saw that modeling was an idol and that Jesus needs to be put first in our lives. The book even has a 30 day devotional to help readers learn to put Christ ahead of whatever they have made first in their lives.