I'm Sorry

The panic would set in and my mind raced.

My heart feeling like it was going to beat out of my chest, the cold sweats and the uncontrollable shaking.

I remember thinking,

Why? Why, me?

I never thought this could happen in real life.

This is like something out of a movie.

How could both parents abandon me?

How could my adult relationships follow the same abusive patterns?

Why am I alone?

Why was I never enough?

How did I let my life get to this point?

Abuse, homelessness, more abuse, bulimia, cheating...