Now You See Her

Now You See Her

by Linda Howard
Now You See Her

Now You See Her

by Linda Howard


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“Steamy romance morphs into murder mystery” when a woman’s visions have her chasing a killer in this romantic suspense from a New York Times bestseller (People).

A talented painter in her early thirties, Paris Sweeney has achieved enviable success: her work sells at an exclusive New York City gallery, and her popularity is at an all-time high. Life is good, and Sweeney, as she prefers to be called, is content.

But lately, Sweeney’s dreams seem to echo a growing restlessness that has taken hold of her. Suddenly, impulsively, Sweeney falls into a night of intense passion with millionaire Richard Worth. Now, the true dangers of her all-consuming urges are about to be revealed where Sweeney least expects it: in her paintings.

After a creative frenzy she can barely recall, Sweeney discovers she has rendered a disturbing image—a graphic murder scene. Against her better instincts, she returns to the canvas time and again, filling out each chilling detail piece by piece. But when a shattering, real-life murder mirrors her creation, Sweeney falls under suspicion. With every stroke of her brush, she risks incriminating herself with her inexplicable knowledge of a deadly crime. And every desire—including her hunger for Richard—is loaded with uncertainty as Sweeney races to unmask a killer.

“Linda Howard is a superbly original storyteller.” —Iris Johansen, #1 New York Times–bestselling author of the Eve Duncan series

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ISBN-13: 9781439140871
Publisher: Simon & Schuster
Publication date: 02/13/2024
Sold by: Barnes & Noble
Format: eBook
Pages: 316
Sales rank: 5,392
File size: 2 MB

About the Author

About The Author
Linda S. Howington is a bestselling romance author writing under the pseudonym Linda Howard. She has written many New York Times bestsellers, including Up Close and Dangerous, Drop Dead Gorgeous, Cover of Night, Killing Time, To Die For, Kiss Me While I Sleep, Cry No More, and Dying to Please. She is a charter member of Romance Writers of America and in 2005 was awarded their Career Achievement Award. Linda lives in Gadsden, Alabama, with her husband and two golden retrievers. She has three grown stepchildren and three grandchildren.
Linda Howard is the New York Times–bestselling romance and suspense author of Up Close and DangerousDrop Dead GorgeousCover of NightKilling TimeTo Die ForKiss Me While I SleepCry No More, and Dying to Please. She is a charter member of Romance Writers of America and in 2005 was awarded their Lifetime Achievement Award. Howard lives in Gadsden, Alabama, with her husband and two golden retrievers. She has three grown stepchildren and three grandchildren.

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Chapter 1
New York City
One Year Later

It was one thing to believe in ghosts, another to actually see them. Sweeney had discovered, though, that the kicker was whether or not she knew the ghost. In the small village of Clayton, New York, where she had lived until almost a year ago, she'd had at least a nodding acquaintance with most of the inhabitants, including the dead ones. In New York City, she didn't know any of them, so she could look past the translucent faces in the crowd and pretend not to see them. Back in Clayton, after she had seen the ghost of Sam Beresford, she had never known when another ghost would stop and speak, and she had never been sharp enough to play it cool and pretend nothing had happened. No, she'd just had to react, and before long people were giving her those looks that said they suspected she was losing her marbles. She had packed up and moved before they began pointing at her on the street.
Yeah, the city was better. Warmer, too. About the time she began seeing the ghosts, her internal heat regulator seemed to go on the fritz, too. She always felt chilled these days, had for the past year. Maybe the cold had started even before she saw little Sam Beresford; she couldn't remember, because who paid attention to things like that? It wasn't exactly something anyone would mark on their calendars: August 29: Felt cold. Yeah, sure.
Sweeney didn't know what had brought the ghosts to mind this bright September morning, but they were the first things she thought of when she woke. That, and the cold, which seemed worse. She got out of bed, hurriedly changed her pajamas for sweats, and went into the kitchen to get that first cup of coffee, thanking God for automatic timers as she went. It was so nice to have the coffee waiting for her when she got up, because she thought she'd probably freeze to death if she had to wait for it to brew.
The first sip warmed her insides on the way down, and she sighed with relief. She actually tasted the second sip, and was going back for the third when the phone rang.
Phones were a necessary nuisance, but a nuisance still. Who the hell would be calling her at -- she checked the clock -- seven-forty-three in the morning? Irritably, she set her cup down and walked over to snag the receiver off the wall.
"Candra here," a warm voice replied to her cautious greeting. "I'm sorry to call you so early, but I don't know your schedule and wanted to be certain I caught you."
"You got me on the first cast," Sweeney replied, her irritation fading. Candra Worth owned the gallery where Sweeney sold her work.
"Beg pardon?"
"Never mind. It's a fishing term. I don't suppose you've ever been fishing?"
"God, no." Like her voice, Candra's laugh was warm and intimate. "The reason I called was to ask if you could be here at about one to meet some potential clients. We were talking at a party last night and they mentioned they're thinking of having their portraits done. I immediately thought of you, of course. Mrs. McMillan wanted to come by the gallery to look at a particular piece I've just gotten in, so I thought it would be convenient for them to meet you while they're here."
"I'll be there," Sweeney promised, though she had looked forward to a day of uninterrupted work.
"Good. See you then."
Sweeney shivered as she hung up and hurried back to her coffee. She didn't like meeting prospective clients, but she did like doing portraits -- and she needed the work. About the time she had started seeing ghosts, her work had gone to hell in a handbasket. The trademark delicacy of her landscapes and still life studies had given way to an uncharacteristic boisterousness, and she didn't like it. Her colors had always been transparent, as if they were watercolors instead of oils, but now, no matter how hard she tried, she found herself gravitating toward deep, passionate, unrealistic shades. She hadn't carried anything to Candra's gallery in months, and though her old pieces were still selling, there couldn't be many left.
She owed it to Candra to take the job, if the couple liked her work. Sweeney was aware that she was not now and probably would never be a hot commodity, because her art was considered too traditional, but nevertheless Candra had always steered her way those customers who preferred the traditional approach, thereby providing Sweeney with a fairly steady, moderately lucrative income. Above that, last year when Sweeney had announced her intention of leaving Clayton, it was Candra who had scouted out this apartment for her.
Not that New York City would have been Sweeney's first choice; she had been thinking of someplace warmer. Of course, New York was warmer than Clayton, which sat on the St. Lawrence River, just east of Lake Ontario, and every winter was the recipient of lake-effect snows. New York City was coastal; it snowed during the winter, but not as often and not as much, and the temperatures were more moderate. Not moderate enough; Sweeney had been thinking more along the lines of Miami, but Candra had talked her into coming to the city and Sweeney didn't regret it. There was always something going on, which provided her with plenty of distraction whenever she thought she was going to scream from frustration.
Above all, New York was big enough that she didn't know any of the dead people, didn't feel compelled by good manners to acknowledge them. The city also provided a steady supply of faces -- live ones. She loved faces, loved studying them, which was why her portrait work was steadily increasing -- thank God, because otherwise her bank account would have been in serious trouble, instead of just in trouble.
The city suited her, for now, and by New York standards the rent was reasonable. Candra had known about the apartment because her husband, Richard Worth, owned the building. He was some sort of Wall Street whiz, a self-made market millionaire; Sweeney had met him a couple of times, and tried to stay as far away from him as possible. He had an interesting but intimidating face, and she thought he must be the type of man who steamrollered over everyone in his path. She made it a point not to be in his way.
The neighborhood wasn't the best, nor was the building, but the apartment was a corner one, with huge windows. She could happily have lived in a barn, if it had as good a light -- and central heat.
The coffee had stopped her shivering. She always felt a little chilled now, but mornings were the worst. She would have gone to a doctor, but whenever she imagined talking to someone about what as going on, her common sense stopped her. "About a year ago I started seeing ghosts, Doctor, and that's when I got cold. Oh, by the way, traffic signals turn green whenever I approach, too. And my plants bloom out of season. So what's wrong with me?" Sure. Not in this lifetime. She'd been pointed at enough when she was a kid. Being an artist was uncommon enough; she wasn't about to let herself be labeled as wacko, too.
The past year had been trying for more reasons than just seeing ghosts. Sweeney resisted change with a stubborn determination that was no less unyielding for its lack of ferocity. She wasn't ferocious about anything but painting. Still, over the years those who knew her well had learned how tenacious she was. She liked routine, liked her life to have an even tenor. She could get along just fine without drama, despair, and excitement, having had a surfeit of it in her childhood. For her, sameness and normality equaled security. But how could she feel secure when she had changed, when she knew she was no longer normal, even if she had managed to hide it from the rest of the world? And now she seemed to have lost her direction, if not her talent; but what good was talent if she didn't know what she was doing with it?
She turned on the television to keep her company while she rustled up breakfast, though cereal didn't require much rustling. She ate the corn flakes dry, without milk, because the milk was cold and she had just gotten rid of the chill, so she wasn't eager to reacquire it. As she ate, the sexy Diet Coke commercial came on, and she paused, spoon halfway to her mouth, eyes widening as her lips formed a silent "wow."
By the time the commercial ended, she felt almost sweaty. Maybe watching more television ads was the key to feeling warm.

After putting in several hours of work in the studio, Sweeney realized it was almost one o'clock and she had to get ready to go over to the gallery. She hated dressing up, but she found herself reaching for a skirt and top instead of her usual jeans and sweatshirt. A flash of scarlet caught her eye, and she slid clothes hangers to the side to extract a red sweater she had never worn that someone had given her for Christmas several years before. The tags were still on it. Studying the bright, rich color, she decided that was just what she wanted today.
She supposed she should take some pains with her hair, too. Standing in front of the mirror, she frowned. She had been blessed, or cursed, with very curly, very unruly hair, and she kept it longer than shoulder length because the weight helped hold it down. Her options were limited; she could pull it back and look like a schoolgirl, try to pin it up and hope she didn't end up with stray curls sticking out like corkscrews, or leave it loose. She opted for loose; the possibility of humiliation was less.
She took a comb and tidied the more unruly parts. When she was little, she had hated her hair. She had inherited the wild curls from her mother, only her mother had gloried in having an untamable mane of hair, bringing even more attention to it by coloring it every shade of red imaginable. She had wanted to color Sweeney's hair, too, but even as a child Sweeney had clung to the small bits of normalcy in her life. Her hair was brown, and she was going to keep it brown. Not red, not black, not platinum. Brown. The color was ordinary, even if the curls were a bit flamboyant.
Putting down the comb, she critically surveyed herself. There. Except for the hair, there was nothing about her that would draw attention. Trim, medium height -- well, almost. She would have liked another inch or two. Blue eyes, curly brown hair. Good skin. She was thirty-one, and still no wrinkles had appeared. The black skirt stopped right above her knees, her shoes were sensible enough to walk to the gallery in but didn't look seriously grandmotherly, and the scarlet sweater was...great. She almost took it off, but was too beguiled by the color.
Some makeup seemed called for. She was never certain she knew what she was doing with the stuff, so she limited herself to the most basic: mascara and lipstick. This was her insurance against looking like a clown. Or Mom, her almost-subconscious jibed. Sweeney always made a real effort to avoid looking or acting like her mother. Being an artist was already enough of a family resemblance.
Because she was fairly certain that all Candra had left of her paintings at the gallery were a couple of landscapes, she sorted through the stack of sketches she'd made of people, selecting the ones that were closest to being finished and put them in a portfolio to show to the McMillans. She didn't have any finished portraits to show, because they were all commissioned and went to the subject as soon as they were completed.
Portfolio tucked under her arm, she left the apartment for the walk to the gallery. The warm September sun beamed down on her as soon as she stepped onto the sidewalk, and she drew a deep sigh of pleasure at the heat. Most of the people she passed, except for the business types who probably wore suits and ties to bed, were in short sleeves. A sign alternating with the time and temperature announced that the temperature was eighty-four degrees.
It was a nice day, the kind of day when walking was a joy.
She came to the corner where her favorite hot dog vendor worked his stand and stopped.
The old man had one of the sweetest faces she had ever seen. He was always smiling, his teeth bright and even in his dark-skinned face. Dentures, probably; people his age seldom had their own teeth. He was sixty-eight, he'd once told her; time to retire. Old folks like him needed to get out of the way and let some youngster make a living. He'd laughed when he said that, and Sweeney knew he had no intention of retiring. He kept selling his hot dogs and smiling his sweet smile at his customers. She had noticed him the first week she'd been in New York and made it a point to pass by his stand as often as possible so she could study his face.
His expression fascinated her. She had sketched it a few times, the work quick and rudimentary because she didn't want him to notice what she was doing and become self-conscious. She hadn't quite gotten it right yet, the look of a man who had no quarrel with the world. He simply enjoyed life. It was that, the total lack of cynicism in his eyes, like a child's, that made her fingers itch to capture him on paper and canvas.
"Here ya go, Sweeney." He swapped the hot dog for the money in her hand, and she tucked the portfolio safely between her calves while she slathered a ton of mustard on the dog. "You look all spiffy today. Hot date?"
Yeah, sure. She hadn't had a date so long she couldn't remember exactly how long it had been. At least a couple of years. Probably several. She hadn't missed it. "Business," she said, and took a bite of the dog.
"That's a shame, lookin' as hot as you do today." He winked at her and Sweeney winked back, though she was a bit startled by the compliment. Hot? Her? She was the least hot person she knew, in any sense of the word. She would rather work any day, lose herself in color and form, light and texture, than waste time worrying what some man thought about her hair or if he was dating others, too.
During college she had gone through the motions because it had seemed to be expected of her, but aside from a couple of rare crushes in high school she had never cared much about any guy. She hadn't felt even a frisson of lasciviousness since...well, since that morning, come to think of it. She was more than a little surprised at herself, letting the Diet Coke commercial get to her like that. This late-blooming lust took her aback. She had thought herself safe from the insane hormonal urges that wrecked the creative careers of so many women, or at least diluted them.
"You'll knock 'em dead in that outfit," the vendor said, winking at her again.
Funny, she hadn't thought the simple skirt and sweater that fetching. It had to be the color, she thought. New Yorkers always wore black; sometimes she thought no one in the city owned a single bright-colored garment. She must look like a cardinal among crows, decked out in her scarlet sweater. And combing her hair had been a definite plus. Hell, she was even wearing earrings.
She retrieved the portfolio from between her legs and continued down the sidewalk, hot dog in hand. The gallery was four more blocks, plenty of time to finish the dog and wipe the mustard from her mouth. Greeting the McMillans with goo smeared on her face wouldn't leave a good impression.
It had been nice of Candra to set up the meeting. Other gallery owners probably wouldn't have overly concerned themselves with her. The big bucks were in primitive and modern art, not in the traditional style she preferred, but Candra was always looking out for Sweeney's interests, guiding business her way. She did that for all the artists whose work she displayed, from the lowest seller to the highest, with a natural warmth that attracted customers, probably making the gallery a ton of money every year. Not that Candra had to worry about money; Richard's wealth made the gallery's profit, or lack of one, unimportant.
At the thought of Richard Worth, his face sprang to her mind, accompanied by the usual uneasiness. She would have liked to paint him, but couldn't see herself asking. His face was all hard angles and sharp eyes. She would never portray him in one of the double-breasted, three-thousand dollar Italian silk suits he liked, though; she would put that face on the docks, or behind the wheel of a big truck. Richard Worth looked like a sweaty T-shirt kinda guy, not a Wall Street wizard.
He and Candra seemed like such opposites. Candra was lovely, aristocratic, with her sleek dark hair and chocolate eyes, but it was a bland sort of loveliness, the type possessed by thousands of women: attractive, but not remarkable. Her true charm lay in her friendly personality, which, like the vendor's sweetness, came from what lay behind the face. Richard's nature seemed molded in his bones, his tough, angled face a testament to the man. As a couple they seemed mismatched, though their marriage had lasted ten years. The times Sweeney had seen them together, she had gotten the impression that though they were standing side by side, it was merely by chance. Richard seemed too cold, too much a workaholic, to appeal to a woman of Candra's warmth, but who knew what went on between a couple in their private moments? Maybe he sometimes actually relaxed.
As Sweeney approached a corner, the traffic signal changed and the Walk sign lit. She had become accustomed to the convenience of never having to linger on any corners waiting for the signals to change. A few drivers seemed bewildered by the brevity of the green light, but that wasn't her problem. She almost smirked at them as she crossed the street. She hated wasting time, and standing around on a street corner sure qualified as wasted time. She begrudged every moment away from her painting, so much so that even eating almost qualified as wasted time.
Not sleeping, though. She loved to sleep. One of her favorite things was to work late into the night, until she was exhausted, then to fall into bed, feeling that delicious heaviness as she lost consciousness, like falling into a hole. The only thing that made it better was if it was raining, too. The pleasure of going to sleep while listening to the rain was almost sensual.
These days, sleeping was an adventure, because with sleep came dreams. She had always dreamed in color, but now her dreams were almost painfully vivid, in lush, brilliant Technicolor. She was fascinated by the hues of her dreams, so intense and vibrant. When she woke she tried to reproduce those colors, only to find they didn't fit her work and she could never get them quite right anyway. They were wrong for the delicacy of her technique, for the precise brushwork that was her trademark. She loved the colors, though, and was disappointed on those mornings when her memory failed to dredge up any dreams at all.
She finished the hot dog, tossed the paper in the trash can, and ran a finger around her mouth to remove any leftover mustard. She didn't much like hot dogs, so she had to smother the taste with a lot of mustard. She supposed she could eat something she did like, but, well, the vendor was always there and she enjoyed his face, and she didn't have to go out of her way, so getting a hot dog saved time. Not only that, now she wouldn't have to waste time eating once she got home.
People marched along the sidewalks, not talking -- unless it was on their cell phones -- and seldom making eye contact. Sweeney openly studied their faces, knowing they weren't likely to look at her and thus catch her looking at them. She ignored the occasional face that was too transparent. It was easy; being New Yorkers, even the ghosts tended to avoid eye contact.
The huge variety of faces in the city was a constant source of wonder and inspiration to her. Paris...well, Paris was okay, but even its name made her uncomfortable. She had seen too many pretentious artists, like her mother, make a big deal about painting in Paris, and Sweeney just didn't fit in with the art crowd there. Not that she fit in with the art crowd here, either, she reflected, but somehow in New York, she had more room, more a sense of being unseen. Candra's idea to relocate to the city had been brilliant. Though Sweeney could foresee a day when she would leave, for now she loved it.
Someday, the city would pall; all the places she had lived in had eventually bored her. She had never done any tropical landscapes and figured one day she'd feel the urge to go to Bora Bora, though on her budget she'd probably settle for Florida. After all, a palm tree was a palm tree. But for now she was still fascinated with faces, and right here was the best place to be.
The gallery was discreetly ensconced behind two double sets of glass doors, the outside set the bulletproof variety, at Richard's insistence. The lettering on the door was small and plain, announcing "Worth Gallery" and leaving it at that. There wasn't a curlicue in sight, which Sweeney appreciated. Ornate gilt lettering would have turned her stomach.
As usual, the first sight to greet anyone entering the gallery was Kai, which in Sweeney's opinion was a sight indeed. He was beautiful; that was the only word for him. She supposed he filled the function of a receptionist, but she wasn't quite certain what his official title was, or if he even had one. Judging from the way some of the female customers stared at him, it was enough for him just to be there; no other function was required. He had glossy, shoulder-length black hair and narrow dark eyes set above chiseled cheekbones, with lush lips that made her think he must have a Polynesian heritage, and strengthened her urge to paint palm trees. He did some modeling on the side and took art classes at night, which made Kai a very busy boy.
She suspected Kai and Candra had had, if not a full-fledged affair, at least a fling. Sweeney could be amazingly oblivious to everything around her when she was working, but painting portraits had made her acutely observant of faces and expressions, and a few times there had been a hint of intimacy between him and Candra. Nothing overt, just a flicker of expression, a brief meeting of gazes, a momentary possessiveness in Kai's manner. Candra would never wear her heart on her sleeve, but Kai wasn't as sophisticated. Sweeney hoped he wasn't emotionally involved, because Candra would certainly never allow herself to reciprocate those feelings. Richard's bucks far outweighed Kai's beauty.
Kai left his seat behind the elegant Queen Anne desk from which he oversaw all entrées, coming toward her with a white smile and raised dark eyebrows. "Sweeney. Wow." His gaze slid down her. "You're looking hot." He had a faint accent, a melodious singsong quality that had to be Hawaiian. His expression was openly admiring.
A bit concerned, Sweeney glanced down at herself. This made two men who had, within the space of ten minutes, told her she looked "hot." The simple scarlet sweater must pack more punch than she had realized. From now on, she would be more careful about wearing it. On the other hand, she adored the color.
"The McMillans aren't here yet," Kai said, touching her elbow, his fingertips lingering on the inside of her arm. "Would you like a cup of tea while you wait?"
This was the treatment he gave customers. Her concern edged toward alarm. Whatever mysterious power the color scarlet had, she didn't like all this male attention. Men were trouble, capital T, italicized, underlined. She didn't have time for men, especially not a smooth, twenty-four-year-old high-maintenance boy toy like Kai. She hadn't lived seven years longer than he had without learning a few things about herself, namely that she was one of those people who function better alone.
The tea sounded good, though.
"Earl Grey, one lump of brown." Candra used the European custom of offering both brown and white lumps of sugar with the tea she kept brewed for her customers. Sweeney considered it an immensely civilized thing for her to do.
"Coming right up." Kai flashed his brilliant smile at her again and disappeared into the small alcove where the tea service was kept. Sweeney looked around, wondering where Candra was. If the McMillans were due, then Candra should already be here; she was extremely punctual, always there to greet the customers with whom she had appointments.
Standing where she was, Sweeney could see most of the gallery. It was two stories high, with regal, curving stairs arching like ribbons up both sides of the room, but the space was mostly open and wonderfully lit, which gave her an excellent overall view, and Candra wasn't in sight.
Kai returned, bearing tea fragrantly steaming in a translucent china cup. "Is Candra here?" Sweeney asked, taking the cup from him and inhaling the steam with unconscious delight.
"She's in her office, with Richard." He glanced over his shoulder at the closed door. "I gather the amicable proceedings aren't proceeding very amicably."
Sweeney frowned into her cup, pondering that opaque statement. "What proceedings?"
Kai blinked at her. "The divorce, of course."
"Divorce?" Sweeney was startled, and disappointed. She had suspected Candra's marriage wasn't perfect, but still, she hated to see people she knew break up. It always distressed her, reminding her of how many divorces she had lived through as a child.
"My God, don't tell me you didn't know. It's been in the works for almost a year, since right after you moved to the city. I can't believe you haven't heard anything about it."
Despite her shock, Sweeney almost snorted. She had lost track of national elections when she was working; why would a divorce blip on her radar? She didn't move in Candra's circles, and though they were friendly acquaintances and had a mutually profitable arrangement -- usually profitable, that is -- they weren't exactly bosom buddies. Or maybe Candra didn't think the divorce was important; it was so common in the art world Sweeney wondered why people bothered going through the motions of getting married.
Her own parents had each been married four times, twice to each other. Sweeney had one younger brother, after whose birth her mother had decided motherhood distracted her from her devotion to her art and had herself spayed. Her father, though, just kept on begetting with his various wives and had produced two half-brothers and three half-sisters for Sweeney, none of whom she saw more than once every couple of years. There had never been any question of fatherhood being allowed to distract him from his art, which was filmmaking. The last Sweeney had heard, he was about to take wife number five, but that had been at least two years ago, so he might well be on number six by now. Or maybe he had gone back to number four. For all she knew, he might be back with her mother. Sweeney didn't exactly stay in touch.
"Candra moved out of the town house just after last Thanksgiving, I think." Kai's eyes shone with the joy of gossip. "I know it was before Christmas, because she had a Twelve Days of Christmas party in her new apartment on the Upper East Side. It's totally swank. She called the party her Twelve Days of Freedom. Don't you remember?"
"I don't do parties," she said, as politely as possible. The last party she had attended had been her own eighth birthday party. She had escaped to her room before the ice cream was served, leaving the little hooligans her mother had invited to scream and fight without her. The ice cream had been Neapolitan, anyway, which she hated, but which her mother always served on the theory that this was the easiest way to satisfy all the children's ice cream preferences.
The truth was, Sweeney didn't do well in crowds, period. Socializing wasn't her strong point, and she was acutely aware of her shortcomings. She never relaxed, and she was always afraid of doing something totally stupid. Her mother, a great egobuilder, was fond of saying Sweeney had the social grace of a Tibetan goatherd.
"You should have done this one." Kai moved closer to her, his fingertips once again touching the inside of her elbow. "The food was fantastic, the champagne never ran out, and so many people were there you couldn't move. It was great."
Kai's idea of great differed considerably from hers. She was deeply grateful she hadn't been invited, though she had to admit that she might have been and promptly forgotten about it. Parties were her idea of hell -- and speaking of which, what the hell was Kai doing to her elbow?
Scowling, she lifted her arm away from his touch. She knew Kai was a lover-boy, but he'd never before turned his attentions to her, and she didn't like it. She made a mental note to return the damn sweater to the back of the closet when she got home.
"Sorry." He was astute enough to know his subtle attentions weren't having the desired effect. He smiled down at her. "Like I said, you look hot. It was worth a try."
"Thanks," she growled. "I've always wanted to be worth a try."
He laughed, his amusement genuine. "Sure. That's why your 'Don't Touch Me' sign is high, wide, and flashing bright neon. Ah, well, if you're ever lonely, give me a call." He shrugged. "So, what've you been up to? Come to think of it, I don't think I've seen you at all for a few months. How's the work going?"
She shrugged. "I don't know. I'm producing, but I'm not sure what I'm producing. I'm trying some techniques." That wasn't the truth, but she wasn't about to cry on Kai's shoulder. He didn't need to know how deeply disturbed she was by the direction her painting had been taking or that she was helpless to stop it. She tried to do the same delicate, almost ethereal work she had done before, but she seemed to have lost the knack. Those damn vivid colors kept getting in her way, and even though she cursed them, she was losing herself in them. And not only were her colors changing, but it seemed as if her perspective was, too. She didn't know what was going on, but the result was jarring, somehow discordant. She had always been confident about her talent, if nothing else, but now she was so paralyzed by insecurity about her new work that she hadn't been able to show it to anyone.
"Oh, really." He looked interested. Of course, he was paid to look interested, so she didn't read a whole lot into his expression. "Do you have anything ready to hang? I'd like to see what you're doing."
"I have several canvases ready to hang, but I'm not sure I'm ready."
"I think you have only one piece left on display; everything else has sold. You need to bring something in."
"I will." She had to, reluctant though she was. If her new work didn't sell, she didn't eat; it was that simple. And they couldn't sell if she never allowed anyone else to see them.
Kai glanced at his watch. "The McMillans should be here soon. I hope Richard leaves before then. Candra doesn't like him coming here at all; she prefers to meet him in the lawyer's office, so she'll be furious if he delays her. She's furious anyway, because he keeps balking."
"He doesn't want the divorce?"
Kai gave another graceful shrug. "Who knows what Richard wants? All I know is, he isn't being very conciliatory. Candra seems to have two moods these days: worried or infuriated."
Infuriated sounded like normal behavior during a divorce; worried didn't. "Maybe she's changed her mind and wants to back out of the divorce, but doesn't know how to smooth things over."
"Oh, she didn't want it at all." His eyes sparkled with the glee of delivering juicy gossip. "From what I gather, Richard's the one who filed. Candra's putting a good face on things, acting as if the decision was mutual, but she isn't at all happy with the split."
Abruptly Sweeney felt ashamed of herself, and irritated, too. Candra had supported her professionally, promoted her, steered clients her way. It went against her grain to gossip like this. If only gossip weren't so titillating. Sweeney tried to control an avid desire to know more, to dig for all the dirty details.
The temptation was great. Dirt was like fat; it made life more delicious.
She was saved from herself by the opening of Candra's office door. She turned and for a brief moment found herself looking directly into Richard Worth's eyes. It was like being touched with a cattle prod, an unwanted but electric connection. Then Candra appeared, her face pale with fury, gripping his arm and pulling him around as the door slammed shut again, closing out the sight and sound of marital disintegration.
"Uh-oh," Kai said with malicious satisfaction. "There's gonna be murder."

Copyright © 1998 by Linda Howington


Before the live chat, Linda Howard agreed to answer some of our questions:

Q: Hello. I'm wondering how you got your first book published. Was it years and years of hard work? Who discovered you? Did you have any jobs before you were an author?

A: Oh, yes. I started writing when I was nine years old. Wrote my first book when I was nine years old. But it wasn't until I was 30 that all of a sudden I wanted to see if I was good enough to sell a book. I wrote All That Glitters, sent it to Leslie Wanger at Silhouette, and that's what got it started. She bought it. But in between I had had 20 years of practice. And I wrote constantly by hand for myself. Of course I had jobs -- I had to eat. I worked for 17 years at a trucking company. I know more about trucking than I really want to.

Q: I'm wondering if you could let us know who out of the characters you've created is your "dream man." Which male protagonist is your favorite, and why?

A: Oh, dear. The ones that I dearly loved, I loved for different reasons. I loved Niall because he was so tough and he was so complicated. He was burdened with a huge responsibility and he bore it. With Marc Chastain, what I liked best about him was probably his honesty. He was sexy, sophisticated, but when he fell, he knew it right off, and he didn't try to hide from it. Dane Hollister in Dream Man was funny and tough and a guy and sexy. They are all different and I love them for different reasons.

Q: I read a lot of romances and very rarely is safe sex even mentioned. Where are the condoms? Are they just not sexy?

A: I kind of figure that my readers are adult enough to make their decisions without being influenced by whether or not I mention a condom in a scene. Whether or not I mention it, that's not to say that a condom wasn't used. But I think my readers are adults and don't need to be preached to or led by me. Condom use is very plainly spelled out in Kill and Tell, but sometimes it just doesn't fit to mention it. Sometimes the characters don't use them.

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