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An utterly authentic story of first (and second and third) love, told in accessible free verse and featuring a new cover and larger trim size.
It’s not that I'm boy crazy.
It’s just that even though
I’m almost fifteen
I’ve been having sort of a hard time
trying to figure out the difference
between love and lust.
and my body
and my heart
just don’t seem to be able to agree
Get to know Sophie, a freshman in high school who’s struggling through the daily grind and all the crushes that come with it, as she shares her innermost thoughts and feelings in this remarkably relatable novel in verse from Sonya Sones.
|Publisher:||Simon & Schuster Books For Young Readers|
|Product dimensions:||8.10(w) x 5.50(h) x 0.90(d)|
|Age Range:||12 Years|
About the Author
Sonya Sones has written five YA novels-in-verse: To Be Perfectly Honest (A Novel Based on an Untrue Story), Stop Pretending, One of Those Hideous Books Where the Mother Dies, What My Mother Doesn’t Know, and its companion, What My Girlfriend Doesn’t Know. Her books have received many honors, including a Christopher Award, the Myra Cohn Livingston Poetry Award, and a Los Angeles Times Book Prize nomination. But the coolest honor she ever got was when What My Mother Doesn’t Know made it onto the American Library Association’s list of the Top 100 Most Banned Books of the Decade (to see why, see p.46). She lives near the beach in southern California, and only tells the occasional fib. Visit her at SonyaSones.com or follow @SonyaSones on Twitter.
Read an Excerpt
Most people just call me Sophie
(which is the name
on my birth certificate),
or sometimes Sofa.
Zak and Danny think it's cute
to call me Couch,
"How're your cushions doing today, Couch?"
Or sometimes they call me Syphilis,
which I don't find one bit funny.
My parents usually call me
Sophie Dophie or Soso.
And Rachel and Grace call me Fifi,
or sometimes just Fee.
But Dylan calls me Sapphire.
He says it's because of my eyes.
I love the way his voice sounds
when he says it.
I like whispering it to myself.
His name for me.
It's like the secret password
to my heart.
Sometimes I just know things.
Like when Lou asked me to go on that walk
down by the reservoir last year
on the last day of eighth grade.
I knew he was going to say
he wanted to break up with me.
And I knew my heart
when he did.
I just know things.
I can feel them coming.
Like a couple of weeks ago
when I went to the Labor Day party at Zak's.
Something perfect was going to happen.
I just knew it.
That was the night I met Dylan.
How It Happened
After Zak's party,
Rachel's big sister
came to drive a bunch of us home,
with her friend
and her friend's younger brother.
I was the last one to get in the car
and it turned out
all the other laps were taken,
so I had to sit on
Rachel's sister's friend's brother's lap.
but even though he goes to my school
I'd never seen him before.
And he had such smoldery dark eyes
that I felt like I'd been zapped
smack into the middle
of some R-rated movie
and everyone else in the car
was just going to fade away
and this guy and I
were going to start making out,
right then and there,
without ever having said
one word to each other.
But what really happened
was that he blushed and said,
"Hi. I'm Dylan."
And I blushed back and said,
And he said, "Nice name."
And I said, "Thanks."
After that we didn't say anything else
but our bodies seemed to be
carrying on a conversation of their own,
into every curve of the road,
sharing skin secrets.
And just before we got to my house,
I thought I felt him
give my waist an almost squeeze.
Then the car rolled to a stop
and I climbed out
with my whole body buzzing.
I said good night,
headed up the front walk,
and when I heard the car pulling away,
I looked back over my shoulder
and saw Dylan looking over his shoulder
When our eyes connected,
this miracle smile lit up his face
and I practically had
a religious experience.
Then I went upstairs to bed
and tried to fall asleep,
but I felt permanently wide awake.
And I kept on seeing that smile of his
and feeling that almost squeeze.
Distracted in Math Class
All I have to do
is close my eyes
and I can feel his lips,
the way they felt
that very first time.
I can feel the heat of them,
parting just slightly,
brushing across my cheek,
and closer still
to my mouth,
till I can hardly breathe,
hardly bear to wait
for them to press onto mine.
All I have to do
is close my eyes.
Between Classes with Dylan
We fall into step
in the crowded hall
without even glancing
at each other,
but his little finger
and all the clatter
of the corridor fades away
till the only sound I can hear
is the whispering of our fingers.
In the Cafeteria
Eating my sandwich,
I'm only aware of
the sparks in his eyes,
the sun in his hair
and the spot where his knee's
Then, over his shoulder,
I see Rachel and Grace waving at me,
grinning like pumpkins,
holding up this little sign
with "Remember us?" written on it.
In the Girls' Bathroom
"Is he a good kisser?"
"Unbelievable," I say.
And it's true.
seem like something
much better than kissing.
I can feel them
with my whole body.
That never used to happen
when Lou kissed me.
And he's the only other boy
I've ever made out with.
"Has he tried to get to second base?"
Grace wants to know.
But the bell rings just in time.
It's Been Rachel, Grace and Me
That September afternoon,
when third grade had barely begun
and we were just getting
to know each other,
we skipped through
the first fallen leaves,
weaving our way through
the quiet neighborhood
to Sage Market for Häagen-Dazs bars.
That September afternoon,
when we saw the four older girls
pedaling towards us,
we didn't expect them to stop
or to leap off their bikes
and suddenly surround us.
But they did.
And we had no idea that the biggest one,
Mary Beth Butler,
who had these glinting slits for eyes,
would ask Rachel
what church she belonged to.
That September afternoon,
after Rachel mumbled, "Saint James's,"
we didn't know that Mary Beth
would ask Grace the same question,
or that Grace would squeak out,
And it's none of your business."
But she did.
And when Mary Beth asked me the question
and I said I didn't go to church
because I was Jewish,
I didn't think she'd start shouting
at Rachel and Grace,
"Don't you know you aren't supposed
to play with anyone
who doesn't go to church?"
while her friends glared
and tightened their circle around us.
That September afternoon,
when Rachel kicked Mary Beth in the shin
and the three of us
crashed through the cage of bikes,
racing off together
across the nearest lawn,
scrambling through the hedge
and into the alley,
not stopping till we
were locked safely behind
the heavy oak of Rachel's front door,
we didn't know that we'd just become
But we had.
Text copyright © 2001 by Sonya Sones
What People are Saying About This
Entertainment Weekly Winning.
Booklist Starred review Fast, funny, touching.
Kirkus Reviews Starred review A verse experience that will leave readers sighing with recognition and satisfaction.
Publishers Weekly Honest...destined to captivate.
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
My teacher was reading this book with a small reading club at school,but I decided to read it on my own,I'm very glad I did.It was a funny,entertaining and captivating book.Once I started reading it,I could not stop! I TOTALLY recommend this book to everyone and anyone who's trying to find a satisfying and pleasing story with a touch of romantic adventure.
It will grab your attention I read in like 1hour it's great!!
i raed this book and its a very awesome book. i just think it just is very detailed and one of the best teenage books i ever read . this girl is fifteen her name is sophia aka saphire she has so much things goin on in her life its just really undescribable .. one of the best books i ever read from sonya sones
I like this book because it shows what true love really is. Sophie shows that love isn't about looks, it's about personality. The only thing wrong with it is that some of the book is a little gross and inappropriate for younger kids. This is a high school book definitely, even though it is easy to read and is very short. I had to write sticky notes for this book, and it was harder than trying not to spill a cup of tea when running on a treadmill. It was hard to find appropriate material. I was surprised to find it in my middle school library. Although it is a little unacceptable for little kids, it's a good book.
I dont read chick books, but i did read this one. I loved it! It was funny, and a good, fast read. Put this on your must read list!!
Not inapropriot. I read it two years ago when i was 11. My middle school has it in the library. Good book! Second one is strange but ok too.
This book is good for girls who love books and are between the age of 11to16 i love it
This was a really good book i think it is deff for older girls like in high school but i loveed it it was amazingg i read it all in one day i couldnt put it down at all i think you all should read it!!!!!
The book What My Mother Doesn't know is very entertaining and realistic. I can understand her side of the story and why she didn't tell her mother anything. The book was short and a very easy to read. I needed some time to adjust to the inverse way of writing. Even though the mom was into her child, the girl could of at least consult her mom and her friends. The book was a fun and easy read and i really enjoyed it. I recommend this book to young girls in middle school.
You need to read this it can help you ALOT i read it for one hour straight i love it you will too!!!!
This book is spectacular, most girls can have some connection to this. You have the homely sweet heart and the hunky jerk... which to choose??? Amazing book, but keeps freezing on me for some reason
Best book ever!
Love every bit it makes me feel like one of tjose teenage girls on tv. Every thing is so perfect. From the font to everything else...i love it. But just to let you no its only 57 pages...but incredibly worth it.
This was a really good book and i finished it in one day! Very good story.
Best book i ever read
The main characters are Sofie and Rachel and Grace. They are good friends. The story takes place at school. Rachel and Grace are on vacation and Sophie meets a boy. He goes to the same school as the girls. They really like each other. Rachel and Grace don't really like the boy. So Sophie is afraid to tell them who the guy is because she doesn't want her friends to make fun of the guy that she met at the dance. When the girls get back from the vacation she wants to have a talk with them about the guy. His nickname is Murphy so all of the students at the school call him that, so Rachel and Grace are gonna know who he is right away. Rachel and Grace are so excited to know who Sophie is hanging out with. Sophie is kind of nervous of what her friends are gonna think of her going out with Murphy. This book was so good and the characters all have there own personality, so I feel like I am actually someone in the book. This book was very good. I recommend this book to girls that are ages 12 and up or even 13 and up. You will love this book.
It was amazing o luv this book!
So far when i read the sample of this book , i already started asking my dad to buy it for me
What my mother doeant know by Sonya Sones Sofie is like anyother normal girl she has friends a loveing mother and a boyfriend. Sofie adores her boyfriend but she also like Merphy the dorkest kid in he school and she wants to kiss him. ******SPOLER!!!!****** she eventualy broke up ith her bf and she went behind her moms back to wear the dress her mom didnt aprove of to the prom an whail shes danceing a guy in a mask comes and the dj plays a slow song and he asks her to dance with him she acepts she didnt fine out untill the very end of the book who her masked man was. 'What my mother doesnt know' is a good short romance book i've read it 2 times it was that good!! At some points in the book you will laugh out loud ( i did and got in trouble in language arts class lol ) and other times you wont be able to stop smileing. I highly recomend 'what my mother doesnt know' by sonya sones. -ninja kitty13!!!!!
I read this book fifty times before I had to return it to the library. I absolutely love this book and recommend it for everyone! It is about this girl named Sophie that is confused about her love life. I related to this book so much (im 14). Best book ever.
Love this book!
Read it in one day. Decent book
I really enjoy this book because it really talks sophie life and rationships
Dear diary, im in my early teens andi have a boyfriend. I love him so so much. But i cut myself and he doesnt know. I want to tell him though. I dont know how to. I tried to overdose a few days ago but im thankful it didnt work because i love my boyfriend and i know some girls get annoyed because of the other girls talking about theyre boyfriends. Im sorry. I wish i could let him know everything that has ever happened to me. I plan on it. I will do it. I hope it doesnt push him away. I love him and he loves me he probably will still stay with me regardless my life. When i first met him i instantly fell in love. He was understanding and had a sense of humor.. when he asked me to be his girlfriend i felt like i was having a seizure. Lol omg i was having a panic attack. I ran around the house screaming. Of course i said yes. He was the dream boy. Just amazing. We became bf/gf about a month after i turned 13 and he is now soon to turn 14. Im still 13 though. Hes my love my life and just amazing. I could use up this whole character limit. Everytime i talk to him im breathless. I used to jave athsma and it feels like its coming back to me whenever hes there. I cant help but smile. I cant ever help but smile. All because of my bf. Whenever im not in a good mood i always think of him and it cheers me up. Ladies , i know what your going through. It sounds like i have the perfect life. Right? Because i dont. I know what its like to be suicidal and to have a broken heart. And sory to you broken hearted girls. I was there once. Some guy will come and sweep you off your feet. He will love you. You are worth it. Or for you les/bi girls, love still waits. You will find your right girl or boy. You will have a better life. If you have a bad one as a teen or child then just get away and run just run and go do what you want. I know it seems like you have a terrible life and you probably do have a bad life right now. Right now you do at least. You are reading this laughing crying angry confused enthusiastic happy scared lost violated spirits raised or encouraged. Trust me yo girls out there. YOURE WORTH EVERY MINUTE OF YOUR LIFE. SOMEBODY OUT THERE LOVES YOU SO MUCH. YOUR MOTHER OR FATHR LOVES YOU SOMEWHERE DEEP DOWN! GIRLS ARE MADE TO SHINE AND TO INSPIRE. I want to make a difference in this world. You dont to try so hard. You were probably raped molested or other stuff but your still worth it. Your not trash. Forget the bullies. They are jealous at how glamorous you are. Emo goth scene sparkly bubbly a few pounds overweight underweight average. Girls of all kinds. black white coucasion. All girls are beautiful. All of them every one of them. Your amazing. Idont care who is reading this. You are amazing. You are a rolemodel for some little girl out there. trust me that a little girl is watching you wantin to be like you and copying you. Being mean isnt cool. It doesnt make you popular. It makes you a witch. There hasnt been a female president. There should be. There are so many things out there to be. Singer actress lawyer farmer police officer cosmetics seller artist cake artist therapist phsycologist so many things. And girl who reads this whole thing has spirit. You know you do honey. I am thirteen but i want to get out there and change the world. I want to change how people look at women and men. I know that not everybody is going to get along. I just know. There are enough homes in the world for everyone to have seven each. Go girls! -Leah age 13<3
I do the same thing now i bave a boyfriend and im also a cristion girl