Carry the Ocean (The Roosevelt, #1)

Carry the Ocean (The Roosevelt, #1)

by Heidi Cullinan

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Normal is just a setting on the dryer.

High school graduate Jeremey Samson is looking forward to burying his head under the covers and sleeping until it’s time to leave for college. Then a tornado named Emmet Washington enters his life. The young man with a double major in math and computer science is handsome, forward, wicked smart, interested in dating Jeremey—and he has autism.

But Jeremey doesn’t judge him for that. He’s too busy judging himself, as are his parents, who don’t believe in things like clinical depression. When Jeremey’s untreated illness reaches a critical breaking point, Emmet is the white knight who rescues him and brings him along as a roommate to The Roosevelt, a quirky new assisted living facility.

As Jeremey and Emmet find their feet at The Roosevelt, they begin to believe they can be loved for the men they are beyond their disabilities. But before they can trust enough to fall head over heels, they must trust their own convictions that friendship is a healing force and love can overcome any obstacle.

Product Details

BN ID: 2940154311219
Publisher: Heidi Cullinan
Publication date: 03/30/2017
Series: The Roosevelt , #1
Sold by: Draft2Digital
Format: NOOK Book
Sales rank: 725,143
File size: 377 KB

About the Author

Heidi Cullinan has always enjoyed a good love story, provided it has a happy ending. Proud to be from the first Midwestern state with full marriage equality, Heidi is a vocal advocate for LGBT rights. She writes positive-outcome romances for LGBT characters struggling against insurmountable odds because she believes there’s no such thing as too much happy ever after. When Heidi isn't writing, she enjoys cooking, reading, playing with her cats, and watching television with her family. Find out more about Heidi at

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Carry the Ocean 5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 12 reviews.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I loved this book. Such insight into how everyones mind and body handle diffrent situations. Great love story. Every teacher and parent should have this as a must read.
pilgrimKG More than 1 year ago
This book is one of Ms. Cullinan's best. Sensitive, empathetic, it has everything. Jeremey and Emmet make a wonderful, symbiotic couple. I'm not going to tell any more, this golden nugget is for you to discover.
edcsdc More than 1 year ago
Bravo Heidi! This was stupendous. Emmet and Jeremey were spot on with their challenges. It left me tearful at moments to see Emmet's struggles and his skills. He still works hard but believes in himself. He's an adult in every sense, it's only outsiders that label him as incapable. Jeremey, how I adored him, he's so kind, sweet and broken. He sees beyond Emmet's tics to the wonderful man underneath. I loved watching him grow into a man who believed in himself. I'm looking forward to the next book Shelter the Sea. Standing ovation for you Heidi! Adult read
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Will make you laugh and cry, and feel encouraged and sad and happy all at once. And maybe understand people and the world a little better. I will be reading this again for sure.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Loved it!
Anne-DirtyGirlsGoodBooks More than 1 year ago
Best book I've read all year, no question! Jeremey, a high school senior, is extremely depressed - a condition made worse by his parents' insistence that he just shake it off and magically get better. Emmett, a genius in college, has autism and works hard create a routine he can thrive with. Surprisingly the two manage to become friends, and Emmett is the one who most clearly recognizes how dire Jeremey's situation is. Not only was this an incredibly sweet romance between two young men, but it was one that really made me think about disabilities and differences and living life to its fullest. It makes me root for everyone to have their own love story. I thought Cullinan did an incredible job writing from the point of view of two young men with differing challenges. Each one wonders if they could ever find someone willing or able to handle their quirks and coping mechanisms. It's delightful to see how they work together. I think this may turn into an all time favorite romance for me, and I see that it's the first in a series, so I"m looking forward to more! Seriously, go read this book now - you won't regret it! *Note: I received a free copy of this book through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Emmett is autistic and he is also awesome. He's not afraid to tell the reader that either! Jeremey has severe depression and clinical anxiety. Their journey together is inspiring to say the least. I couldn't get enough of these two and was sad when the book came to an end. Please do yourself a favor and read this wonderful book.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I often feel that most of the stories I read are a variation of a story I've read before, but this story is truly unique. It's also thoroughly enjoyable. Yes, it has dark, gut wrenching moments, but at no point did I stop loving what I was reading.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Absolutely amazing! You have to read this book!
Kassiah More than 1 year ago
Heidi Cullinan is one of my favorite authors of any genre, no question. Every word she writes is pure gold and no matter if her stories have faeries and demons or a cappella groups and drag queens, I love her and love her hard. Carry the Ocean is something really different for her though, still classic Heidi, but this one is just a little bit more. It covers a wide range of topics: autism spectrum disorder, clinical depression, anxiety disorders, prejudice, homophobia—and even more in between. Emmet and Jeremey (with 3 e’s, never 2) have to fight and fight hard to be together and forge their paths, but it’s a journey you’ll never forget. And along the way, you’ll learn about things that maybe you didn’t know before. Carry the Ocean is about believing in yourself, believing in love, and believing that anything is possible, no matter the obstacles. What We Loved: In a nutshell, everything. Even the hard stuff … and there IS hard stuff to get through. Given the topics addressed, that is hardly surprising, especially knowing how Heidi usually puts her readers through every emotion possible. There are plenty of light moments in Carry the Ocean, Emmet’s straightforwardness will make you laugh plenty and the Blues Brother’s impersonations are total win. Mostly, what I loved is how Heidi can take such serious topics and treat them with respect and truthfulness and make the reader understand and experience things that they might not have ever encountered before. She has a true gift for that, it’s magical the way she can immerse us into lives and characters and TEACH while she entertains. I also loved this quote from the book because well, it’s just perfect (and maybe a tiny bit sad). my emotions feel loud and big. its hard for me to keep hold of them. they weigh me down. make me heavy and tired and overwhelmed. sometimes I feel like everyone else is carrying a bucket of water but I’m trying to carry an ocean. its very hard. sometimes I would rather not carry my ocean, even if it meant I couldn’t be alive. Heart. Clench. Right? I also loved the dual POV throughout the book. Seeing both Jeremey’s and Emmet’s sides let us REALLY see both characters and gave us a much deeper insight into both. I loved the trains, life lessons via Elwood Blues, how sweet these boys are with each other, even when, or especially when the world around them is sometimes cruel. I loved their true, deep friendship as well as their romantic relationship. I loved Emmet’s dad. Um, not so much: First and foremost, Jeremey’s mom. She’s heinous and mean. Of course, you’re not SUPPOSED to love her or even like her so kudos to Heidi for making it so easy to hate her. The thing is though, as awful as she is, there are plenty of people out there that think and act like she does which I definitely don’t love either. The Guys: Emmet David Washington. I’ll let Emmet describe himself because he does it so much better than I ever could. My name is Emmet David Washington. I’m nineteen years old, and I’m a sophomore at Iowa State University studying computer science and applied physics. I got a perfect score on my ACT. I’m five feet nine inches tall with dark hair and blue-grey eyes. I enjoy puzzles and The Blues Brothers. I’m good at computers and anything to do with math. I remember almost anything I read and see. I’m gay. I love trains, pizza and the sound of rain. I also have autism spectrum disorder. So to sum up—Emmet is awesome. He’ll tell you so, many times as a matter of fact. He’s sweet and loving and brilliant and what he wants more than anything is Jeremey … and to be independent. He fights hard for both things and his bravery and courage will make you cry. He’s difficult at times, but he’s also real and though I don’t know anyone personally with autism, I feel like I do now. I learned so much from him, through him. Jeremey Sansom. Oh Jeremey. He’ll break your heart. Quiet and shy, suffering so silently, so alone until Emmet storms into his life and shakes it all up. At first glance, it’ll appear as if he’s the normal one (though as you’ll see throughout the book, normal is definitely relative) but the farther along you get, the more you’ll realize how broken Jeremey truly is. It’s difficult at times to understand Jeremey, to get why he’s so down on himself and how come he just can’t “get over it” but that, I believe, is one of the main lessons of Carry the Ocean. Depression is no joke, and to the people who suffer from such a debilitating disease, life sometimes is just … hard. Jeremey is lucky to have Emmet. These two boys are SO sweet to each other and the foundation of their friendship gives them the tools to move onto boyfriends as well. Emmet forces him to see the good things in life, sometimes something as simple as watching a train go by. Jeremey’s growth in the book was very rewarding to witness. What We Think Will Happen Next: Well, we already know this only Book One of the Roosevelt series so there is definitely more to come. Our guess (and we’re pretty sure Heidi has already mentioned this) but David’s story is next. I CAN’T WAIT for that. Not only is David straight (and at first REALLY unlikable!) but as a paraplegic it will be SO interesting to see what Heidi does with his character and where he goes. I also hope to get a peek into the lives of Jeremey and Emmet as they learn to live with one another and see how their relationship grows. The bottom line: Everyone should read this book, even if reading M/M isn’t normally your thing. You won’t be sorry. It will teach you, inspire you, and most of all, leave with you with a sense of contentment you won’t soon forget. There is no normal, not really. Not a right and a wrong way to be. But there is belonging.
asgoodrich More than 1 year ago
I LOVED THIS BOOK!!! Totally and completely, one hundred percent, loved this book. As someone who works with persons with autism, I was taken aback with how well Ms. Cullinan portrayed Emmet, especially how well his actions and thought processes reflected what we know and what we believe we know about autism. That she included other characters with autism to illustrate the similarities and individuality of the spectrum was brilliant. As if that were not enough, Jeremy struggling through life with major depressive disorder and clinical anxiety while dealing with parents who seem to think that he can just “snap out it” elevated the complexity of Carry the Ocean. And while each of these characters’ story is compelling on its own, it is how their relationship develops over time and how they become one another’s anchor in the world that truly made Carry the Ocean an inspiring read for me. As the book is told from both Emmet and Jeremy’s points of view, the reader gets to see firsthand how their disorders affect them and the lives they lead. I connected with both characters almost immediately and was sucked into their stories completely. I found myself rocking with Emmet when he was upset and wanting to crawl under the covers with Jeremy when his depression bottomed out. Because of this connection, I found myself cheering for them when their friendship began to evolve in the way that Emmet had hoped. It is why I was so appalled by Jeremy’s mother’s reaction when she caught them cuddling and practically accused Emmet of taking advantage of Jeremy. It is also why it broke my heart when Emmet’s mother tried to discourage his relationship with Jeremy. While I understood her maternal drive to protect Emmet from heartbreak, I hated that in doing so she was sending seriously mixed messages to Emmet. I’m not sure which I enjoyed most: move-in day to The Roosevelt, the Blues Brothers’ dance through Target, Jeremy finding his purpose in life, Emmet and David becoming friends, or one of the many other achievements the characters made in the book. I think it would be easier to point out what I didn’t like about the book and that was Jeremy’s parents’ reaction to Emmet but mainly because of the realism of it. Carry the Ocean was such a beautifully moving tale and I feel woefully inadequate in my ability to express must how much I enjoyed reading Emmet and Jeremy’s story. I suppose the fact that it led me to start my Top Ten list for 2015 is rather telling. This book was a wonderful look at the human condition that shed light on several disorders that are near and dear to me on both a professional and personal level. That it is the first installment in The Roosevelt series and said series will obviously be focused on the residents of The Roosevelt gives me hope for many more inspiring stories to come. With just one book, Ms. Cullinan has made a fan of me and I look forward to checking out her other books while I await my next visit to The Roosevelt.  I received a complimentary copy of the book in exchange for an honest review.  Reviewed by Angela at Crystal's Many Reviewers!
Under_The_Covers_BookBlog More than 1 year ago
4.5 Stars Reviewed by Annie and posted at Under The Covers Book Blog Heidi Cullinan has really outdone herself. As a fan for a long time, I strongly feel that CARRY THE OCEAN may very well be one of her best books. It touches on some sensitive topics, topics that maybe other authors have tried to stay away from because of the complexity it involves. But Cullinan embraces them and has created two wonderful beautiful characters in Jeremy and Emmet. Jeremy is clinically depression while Emmet is autistic. I know what you’re thinking…that must be a whole lot of angst. And there is, but Cullinan handles it in a way that makes you root for the characters and their love. Emmet is a little more comfortable in his skin. He doesn’t care that he is autistic and actually does pretty well for himself. Though many see him as different, he thinks he is awesome and I have to agree with that because if it wasn’t for his honesty coming through in the pages, I don’t think this book would work especially with someone as broken as Jeremy is. Jeremy is far more subdued and more cautious than Emmet is. However, Emmet brings out the best in Jeremy and I think that also translates into the romance. While their relationship starts off as awkward and a little strained, the way they are so aware of one another makes you root for their romance. As they learn what makes each other tick and in turn learn more about depression and autism, it makes you as a reader fall deeper in love with them. I liked that Cullinan didn’t make the romance their saving grace but made it something that brought them together. It’s their will and strength that helps them through in the end and for me, that was important to see. CARRY THE OCEAN is an absolutely beautiful story. Although it’s not one I could pick up and reread again because of all the emotions associated with, it will definitely remain on my keeper shelf for some time. Do yourself a favor and read this book!