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| ISBN-13: | 9781546256823 |
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| Publisher: | AuthorHouse |
| Publication date: | 08/28/2018 |
| Sold by: | Barnes & Noble |
| Format: | eBook |
| Pages: | 226 |
| File size: | 551 KB |
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CHAPTER 1
2007
The Feeling of LOVE
In the twinkling of the moonlight A glimpse of your beautiful face Thousands of memories run through my mind And my mind begins to race
Now you're looking in my eyes A feeling my heart can't bare It gently begins to rain But we don't even care
And now we're drenched in water But we still won't leave our scene He says: I love you more than the stars and the planets And everything in between
Now we're holding hands As I whisper "I love you too"
With tears building in my eyes I say
"And I wanna spend my life with you"
And now the weather's cooling And the warm air begins to chill Not even the most exquisite word,
Can describe how he makes me feel
Now he's holding me tightly As we lay where the butterflies fly He kissed me and touched me so lovingly As we watched the beautiful sun rise
It STOPS with me
Lying in my bed I'm just so confused My mind is still racing ...
What should I do?
It's hard to let people in When you're constantly being hurt,
They build your trust up,
But it still doesn't work.
I mean why do they fake it?
And pretend like they care Because when you need them the most,
They're not even there.
I'm so sick of crying And falling apart I am the innocent one It was you from the start!
I just wanted to let you know That it now stops with me Whom the Son sets free,
Is free indeed.
I know you think you got me And won this battle we had You're probably laughing right now Say "yea I got her bad"
Lord please forgive him For he know not what he do,
He wasn't just hurting me He was disappointing you too.
Happy Birthday Mom
You may have thought I've forgotten Or it just simply slipped my mind You silly aging woman I knew the entire time.
I knew this was your day Special and so true So now I take the time to say Happy birthday to you Happy birthday to you know And so many times before You're almost at the halfway point So what are you waiting for?
Waiting for an opportunity Or for that special chance Get out there and live a little Grab life by its hands Grab it tight and swing it As far as it can go That life was full of the old you And things you know longer know You no longer know the past It's gone but not forgotten Just because you've changed Doesn't mean your future's stopping You may have though I've forgotten Or it just simply slipped my mind Happy birthday mommy,
Only until next time
To Be Your Wife
You leave me speechless My breath completely away Every time I'm around you I have no idea on what to say You give me a sense of completion Like together we are one Never any dull moments We're always having fun And now you tell me,
You need me in your life Out of all the women in the world You want me as your wife?
I've never felt a love so real I've never felt a love so true Than the sweet, sweet loving That I feel from you
To be totally honest I think it's too good to be true I had given up on love and then I met you
Yes I'll be your wifey Yes I'll be your friend Yes I'll be with you baby Until the very end SNC
MONSTER
You terrible horrible Monster,
I'll never call you by name Just, Monster, Monster, Monster,
For what you've done you should be ashamed To me you're just a Monster That's the only thing I see You've broken ripped and torn,
All the innocence in me I truly hope you're happy Because you had the upper hand,
But oh, not anymore Monster,
I'm about to take a stand You really used to scare me,
To where I couldn't move That fear is changing to anger And the determination to prove To prove that you an animal A Monster in every single way Monster, Monster. Monster,
What else is there to say?!
I am a hero,
Because I did what was right to do Now my daughters and their daughters Won't have to face Monsters like you You don't know how much I hate you To the point I yell and cry Because of you I'm confused and ...
And can't understand why ...
You probably think this is some fantasy,
Too sick and disturbed to be real But what happens when it' time to step back into reality?
Look at how you made me feel You make me feel like nothing Like my words have no effect on you You Monster, even when I said no,
You always followed through Ohhh how you how you make me angry,
Furious, burning hot mad MONSTER I hope you have it bad Bad enough to hurt you Just like you hurt me Bad enough for you to see What you really did to me I was afraid to see you You know, face to face,
I'm ready to look you in the eye now Monster,
And show you who's in what place You took the best of me Monster,
Again and again I didn't deserve what you did to me But I refuse to let you win One person can make a difference All you have to do is stand And if it's too big for you to handle,
Put it into God's hands Yes I've been broken And find it hard to live But time after time I always seem to forgive I forgive you for hurting me And for everything you've done Yes I forgive you Monster Because in the end I've really won
You Don't Deserve Me
You don't deserve me baby,
I've been nothing but faithful to you I find myself crying a lot more And it's all because of you You don't deserve me baby I was too good for you I did everything you ever asked me And I did it all for you I did everything you wanted You didn't even have to ask I would've done anything for you Even the simplest task Go ahead and leave me lonely At least I won't die I'd rather have you leave me Than listen to you lie Lie about your past and everything you didn't do Get out!
I do not need you Even though you said you loved me And without me there'd be no you But that was just a selfish lie And I believed it too I believed you cared I thought you needed me But now I realize You don't deserve me You don't deserve to be in my presence And you definitely don't deserve my love I thought I was your angel Sent down from above Through sickness and health Til death do us part Those wor ds ...
They came from my heart But now that I think about it,
You've been bad for my health I'm an independent woman I can do bad all by myself.
These Words Unspoken
These words unspoken But dwell so deep inside These words that express my feelings But I find ways to hide Words that tell a story Of an innocent teenage girl Words that show her journey And outlook on the world Her mind is always racing And beating to a different drum She reaches her hand out for condolence But no one has time to come These words so deeply unspoken That she's held in for a mighty long time These words that hold true meaning These words that acknowledge a crime These words are like the wind Felt but never seen Dangerous, yet serene These words are like a volcano At any moment to explode These words will leave an impression Once they've finally been told Forgiveness is a virtue?
Ways to forgive you must find?
With people stepping on my heart like a doormat You want me to push that to the back of my mind?
There's only your mind can hold When you're constantly under attack Your feelings and your emotions ...
All at once begin to unwind Unravel like a ball of yarn That never seems to end Every time you try to wire it up It unravels again ...
Even Though
Even though you promised You'd grow old with me I'll have to understand now That it just wasn't meant to be I know you're in a better place So there's no reason for me to cry But I just can't help myself You didn't deserve to die.
If I could relive any moment It would be our first kiss That's the night you told me you loved me But that's not all I'll miss I'll miss that unexplainable feeling I used to get when I look into your eyes And the way you used to hold me, so close Any time I cried I'll miss your sinuating touches The way your hands caressed my skin,
I'll miss your luscious lips becoming ones with mines Ohh, why did it have to end?
You were my first and only love My only love affair I knew that if I needed you,
Without hesitation you'd be there Our hearts, they were the same Full and so complete Now without you in my life baby,
My heart, it skips a beat Even though you promised That you'd grow old with me You're no longer here physically,
But your spirit lives in me
Forever Yours
Forever yours I'll be Words cannot express what you mean to me You walked into my life And turned it all around And ever since that moment My feet haven't touched the ground You keep me in the sky Floating on cloud nine I'd probably be able to handle you better You weren't so damn fine You are just so wonderful Baby you set me free I'm not worried about anyone else,
You're the only boy for me You are my angel Sent down from above I thought all boys were the same And then you showed me love.
IF
If I told you that I needed you,
Would you stay by my side?
If I told you I was afraid,
Would you find a place for me to hide?
If I told you that I loved you,
What would you do?
Would your reply be thank you Or I love you too?
Sometimes I think That its too good to be true,
Nah, what am I saying,
I have trust in you.
Maybe it's me Maybe it's not you Sometimes it seems Like we're two worlds apart And the only thing keeping us together Is our hearts But what if one heart Doesn't quite feel the way it used to?
Can that other heart take on the challenge To complete something that clearly takes two?
What if I decide That this is too much Would you grab me by my had And just tell me to hush?
Would you calmly take me on a stroll?
Right down memory lane Would you show me the good times, the bad times and even some pain?
What if I said I'm tired of this love game In the end, one of us will be hurt Then who will we blame?
Would you tell me that Relationships go through ups and downs And that it's your job to console me when I frown?
Would you tell me That together we can make it through any trial?
Would you whisper "I'll always be here?"
And just hold me for a while?
I Think I Love You
Love is something special Love is something true I guess what I'm trying to say is ...
I think I love you.
I know I really like you I know I really care I know that if you need me I promise I'll be there I hope that we will make it I hope what we have will last I hope that you stay strong by my side Like you have in the past Maybe we'll watch each other age Maybe we'll watch each other grow Maybe we'll watch each other change from teenagers to independent adults Maybe you'll be the only love I know I have faith in our future I have faith in our dreams I have faith in us staying together By all means
I believe in you I believe me I believe in everything That we think we could be I think that you're special I think that this is true I understand what I'm saying now,
I'm saying I love you ...
Since I Met the Lord
Since I've met the Lord My life has been changed I've been broken, shaped, molded And completely rearranged All my pain and agony I got on my knees and prayed And with a little trust and patience He took them all away I can't keep your blessings a secret I can't help but share it I'm always quite excited I hope the world can bare it You've always been beside me As far as I can see And when I needed you the most God, you carried me You're incredible God Who's name I'll forever exalt You've fought all my battles Even the ones that weren't my fault So since I've met the Lord I'll choose no other way I'm finally here where I belong,
And I'll have it no other way
Remorseful
I'm remorseful for what happened And I wish it weren't true But I know the pain your feeling I've felt what you're going through Everything happens for a reason Everything has a cause You have to understand that in war Soldiers sometimes fall This isn't an easy thing to conquer You have to take it day by day And gradually in time I promise,
God will ease the pain away Death is a serious thing Hurtful but so real I've buried three close family members And I'm just beginning to heal Cherish every moment With the people you know and love Because at any given moment They could be looking down from above I've lost two of my three cousins in the last years To violence and one to an car accident All three of them were young and innocent But death is something they couldn't prevent Don't take life for granted Do something you never thought you'd do Don't let a moment pass I'm remorseful for what happened And I wish it weren't true But I know the pain you're feeling And if you need me I'm here for you
In The Words of a Broken Heart
In the words of a broken heart In the words of the tears I've cried In the words of the ones I've lost In the words of the times I've tried Tried to hide my feelings Tried to show little pain Tried to forget the memories And just tried to maintain Maintain my true emotions Maintain it from the start Maintain the times we shared Maintain my broken heart Broken hearted once But never quite like this I honestly can admit You one I'll really miss Miss your sense of humor And the way you make me smile And how we could sit and just talk about nothing And just laugh for a In the words of a broken heart In the words of the tears I've cried In the words of the ones I've lost Who didn't deserve to die
I Like Being Me
I'm me Simply me What exactly Do you see When you look at me?
Cause I'm not him I'm not her I'm not y'all And I ain't them.
I'm just me And you know what?
I like being me I kick butt And I like being me I do hugs I like being me Not drugs And I like being me I don't drink I like being me I do the things I do And I don't have to explain Myself to you Because I accept the bad And gave up what I had I'd rather cry when I'm sad Than blow up when I'm mad I realize That I don't have to compromise In order to live my life I know that I've changed My life rearranged Sometimes it can be strange But I deal with all the pain But more or less I'm me Just simply me And I'm standing in the mirror And I like what I see.
Storm
Sometimes I cry But have no idea why If my life has a reason Why do I keep facing All of these bad seasons I know my life is real But I can't cope With all the emotions I feel I try To live day by day Thinking to myself Everything will be ok When I look at other people's lives And compare them to mines All of a sudden I realize My life is close to fine Close to fine but not good I don't know I live in the suburbs But it seems so hood My life is now different But it's not better But now I seem to be able to whether Even the worse weather And I know what I'm going through Won't last forever When I'm done facing this hell Best believe I'll have an admirable Story to tell
Excerpted from "Journey According to .Re."
by .
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