Secrets & Shame: Dear Oprah Diaries

James remembers the day he began to plot to kill his father, Harry: It was the day before his seventh birthday, and he finally realized his mom was not going to leave him.

Whenever Harry would beat his mom, James would think, "No, Dad! Stop beating Mom. Look over here at me. I'm the one you are angry with. I'm your sissy son, remember?"

Eventually, Harry would banish James from their Texas home, telling him he was going to pray he'd get AIDS and die. "Our family has been shamed and embarrasse...