Self Incrimination

Self Incrimination

by Randy Singer


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Self Incrimination by Randy Singer

Tara Bannister’s abusive stepfather finally pushed her too far. To save herself she had to kill him. Or did she? Tara’s confession doesn’t add up, and as her self-defense claim crumbles, attorney Leslie Connors must overcome more than first-trial jitters to mount a credible defense. Leslie must save Tara’s life—against her client’s will. In the midst of this taxing case, Leslie’s wedding plans to law partner Brad Carson are interrupted by a devastating diagnosis. Does she dare tell Brad? Before the final gavel falls, Leslie must confront the truth about herself and her mysterious client, or the darkness of the past will swallow them both.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781414335674
Publisher: Tyndale House Publishers
Publication date: 04/26/2010
Pages: 400
Sales rank: 735,790
Product dimensions: 5.50(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.10(d)

About the Author

Randy Singer is the critically acclaimed author of three legal novels including Directed Verdict, winner of the 2003 Christy Award for the best Christian suspense novel. Singer is a veteran trial lawyer with over a decade of courtroom experience. He also lectures at Regent Law School, serves as Chief Counsel for the North American Mission Board and is a legal advisor for the American Center for Law and Justice. He and his wife live in Atlanta, Georgia with their two children.

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By 10:00 p.m., Trish Bannister was worried sick.
It was Friday, so she didn’t expect him right after work. If he made it by seven or eight, the night would be tolerable. Nine o’clock would mean he had broken his promise and had been drinking. There would be shouting and cursing, but nothing physical. But it was now ten. It had been two months since James had been this late on a Friday. It would be ugly.

For a moment she pondered the irony of it. Her husband picks Good Friday to come home drunk. The day of the Crucifixion, the suffering of Christ. Why do they call it Good Friday anyway?

Dinner was beyond cold. She would pop it in the microwave as soon as she heard his car, but the steak would still be dry and the rolls would be too hot. Two months ago she had used the microwave, and he had backhanded the plate across their formal dining room table. She scrubbed the carpet for half an hour. He stood over her, pointing out spots she had missed.

The next day she almost left.

She stayed for the kids. And she stayed because she wanted to believe his promises. No more drinking. He would get counseling. Things would change as soon as he could pull the company out of its nosedive.

The company. She remembered the banquet a few weeks ago, how the booze had flowed like water but James had never touched a drop. She remembered how she felt when it was his turn at the mike. He paused, choked back the tears, then thanked her for being his strength.

She stayed because there were some things worth fighting for.

She paced the front foyer, nibbling at the fingernail on her right thumb, oblivious to the extravagance she calledhome. She stood in the midst of carved white pillars on a marble floor. From her position next to the front door, she could see most of the first floor, every spacious room flowing into every other room. The family room opened to a cut-stone patio and an Olympic-sized pool.

She glanced again out the front windows to the circular drive. No sign of James and his Town Car. No sign of sixteen-year-old Tara and her Explorer. She prayed that Tara would get home before James. After all, Tara was supposed to be grounded. But Tara had left earlier in a huff, after Trish had nagged her about her progress report. Trish couldn’t stop the kid. She was sixteen years old and strong willed. Trish would deal with Tara tomorrow.

“Jamie, turn it down!” Trish yelled toward the general direction of her eleven-year-old’s room. There was no chance he would hear. She glanced again out the front window, then hurried up the steps.
She pounded on his locked door. “C’mon, honey. Dad’ll be home soon.” No response. “Turn it down! Now!” The volume lowered to a softer roar. But the carpet in the hallway still vibrated with every beat of the bass. Trish rubbed her forehead. The pressure was building, the migraine forming.

Jamie’s progress report had been the only bright spot this week. A fifth grader, he had been diagnosed with Tourette’s syndrome and attention deficit disorder less than two years ago. At times, despite heavy doses of Ritalin, clonidine, and haloperidol, Jamie was hard to control. But his teacher was understanding, and his classmates were, for the most part, accepting of him. Unlike Tara, Jamie was at least trying.

Trish walked quickly to the master bathroom, listening for the sound of car engines. She opened the top drawer under her sink, found her migraine prescriptions, and popped two Fiorinal tablets and two Imitrex. She stopped and stared at her reflection. The lines on her face ran deep, creeping farther each day from the corners of hollow eyes.

Too late she heard the sound of wheels on asphalt. If it was James, she would not be at the door to greet him. There would be no time to slide his plate into the microwave before he entered.

She heard heavy footsteps on the front porch. A man’s footsteps. James was home.

And dinner was stone cold.

She made it to the top of the foyer steps just as he entered. He closed the door and stood in the foyer, teetering back and forth, shifting from one leg to the other.

The red eyes, the storm that darkened his face. Even before the stench of stale liquor permeated the foyer, she knew.

“Hey honey,” she said, trying to sound light and casual. She descended the steps and greeted him with a quick kiss. There were no fists, but she could sense the rage.

“Where’s dinner?” The words came out thick and menacing. His shocks of wavy black hair, full of styling gel, were smeared haphazardly about his head. His tie hung loose around his neck, not even knotted. But for the custom suit, he looked like a homeless person, not the CEO of a cell phone company.

“In the kitchen,” Trish said, taking one step back. “Let me go heat it up real quick.”

“Where’re Tara and Jamie?” he asked as he followed her toward the kitchen.

“Jamie’s upstairs. Tara’s out.”

“I thought she was grounded,” James mumbled. “Any calls today,

Trish froze. Denying it only made things worse. Keep moving, she told herself. Act natural. She put his plate in the microwave. He leaned against the island counter in the middle of the kitchen and stared at her, studied her…unnerved her.

“How was work?” Trish asked, trying to change the subject.

He snorted, as if the question didn’t deserve an answer. “Same as

She pulled the plate from the microwave and placed it on the kitchen table. James threw his coat on the sofa in the living room and sat at the table. Trish dutifully took her spot at the other end, her mind racing with thoughts of Tara. If she came home now, with James acting this way, there would be war.
“Did you already eat?” he asked.

“I’m not hungry.”

For a few moments James ate in stony silence. She watched warily, looking for signs of an eruption. Thankfully, he hadn’t taken umbrage about the microwaved meal. At least that was something. Maybe she would survive the night with minimal damage. Each bite that he took, each minute that passed without further incident raised her hopes ever so slightly.

Why did she live like this? Why didn’t she just leave? How many times could she watch him come home drunk one night, then beg forgiveness the next day, showering her with attention and gifts?

She sat there conflicted, torn between survival instincts–just make it through the night–and her desire to confront James for his own good, if nothing else. She took a deep breath and faced into her responsibilities. She was tired of playing the victim.

“What about your promises?” she asked, her voice quivering in the silence. “Is this how much you care about your family?”

James looked up from his food with disdain. She returned the look without flinching, proud of her stance but dreading the price she might pay. She relaxed ever so slightly as he lowered his defiant gaze to his plate and ate in silence.

Less than a minute later the phone rang. It startled Trish, and she rose quickly to get it.

“Sit down,” James barked, glaring at her with dark, liquid eyes. He rose slowly and checked the caller ID. Trish knew from the look on his face that it was another random calling card number.

He picked up the phone anyway. “Who is this?”

Trish sat there, not daring to breathe. She prayed for another phrase from her husband, anything to indicate the person on the other end had spoken. But her husband was silent, the phone to his ear, the blood rushing to his face. After an unbearable pause, he returned the phone to the cradle with exaggerated patience. Trish felt the wind leave her lungs. As usual, the caller had hung up without saying a word.
“Lover boy must have thought I’d be home a little late tonight,” James whispered.

He stood by the phone, looking her over. “Oh, I know,” he mocked. “It’s just some prank caller. Probably dialed our number at random.”

Trish stared at the table.

“Who is he?”

“I don’t know! Honest, I don’t.”

“You’re lying.”

Trish put her hands against the table and slid her chair back, standing quickly and turning away from James. “I’m not talking to you when you’re like this.”

But he was on her in a flash, grabbing her arm and jerking her back toward him. He unleashed a violent backhand across her face. Then, perhaps stunned by the violence of his own blow, he let go of her arm.

Trish tasted the blood and slowly raised her hand to her mouth to rub the lip and assess the damage. This time she looked him in the eye.

“You disgust me,” she said.

She turned to walk away, heading toward the family room and
the back steps.

Don’t turn your back on me,” he snapped.

But Trish kept walking.

She took only four steps before he grabbed her again, squeezing her slender bicep and twisting her toward him. He tossed her like a rag doll up against the wall, knocking over a floor lamp. The light bulb shattered on the carpet.

“Don’t ever try to hide things from me,” he said. “You think the old man’s a fool?” He squeezed her arm with viselike force, and Trish raised up on her toes. “Who’s making these calls? Who’s sleeping with my wife?”

“Nobody… I d-don’t know.” It came out as a whimper. Then, out of the corner of her eye, Trish saw another flash. A backhanded slap blurred her vision. She fell to her knees, then James grabbed her by the arm and jerked her to her feet again.

“No…please…no…” She lifted her right arm to fend off the next blow. But this time there was no blow, only the iron grip of James’s thumb and forefinger on her neck. He slammed her head back against the wall with a force that sent a picture crashing to the carpet. “Tell me!” he shouted. He moved up against her, shoving his thumb and forefinger harder against her throat.

Trish flailed her arms, trying to find some leverage, trying to force him away from her. But still he squeezed, using both hands now, choking the air out of her for five seconds, ten seconds, twenty. She tried to plead with him but couldn’t speak. He pinned her neck hard against the wall, his face inches away, threatening, smiling, glaring with those hooded eyes. She felt the stale bursts of his putrid breath, his sweaty body sandwiching her against the wall. Things started spinning, going black. Her body went limp, and then, inexplicably, her husband backed away, removing his hands from her throat as she slumped down the wall, gasping for air.

James hovered over her for a moment, his rage riding on every labored breath. “You disgust me,” he said, mocking her earlier statement. “Now get out of here.” Then he turned and headed back toward the kitchen. He took his seat at the table and began calmly cutting his steak.

Trish squatted there on the floor, trembling, until the room stopped spinning. She ran her tongue against the inside of her left cheek, felt the swelling, and winced. She rose slowly and deliberately, glanced at her husband, then climbed the back steps to her bedroom.


She froze on the top step, her hand trembling on the doorknob to her bedroom. James was still in the kitchen, but there was no mistaking the tone in his voice.

“Wear something nice.”

Without answering, she went through the bedroom and into the master bathroom, where she gingerly washed her face. She sobbed as she put on her pajamas. She turned out the lights, crawled into bed, and waited in petrified silence with the covers pulled up to her chin. She stared at the ceiling, her vision blurred from the swelling and tears, the pain throbbing in her cheek, and her head splitting despite the medication she had taken earlier. She prayed that Tara would come home late. She prayed James would pass out watching television. Twice she thought she heard the stairs squeak, and her heart froze midbeat, the bile rising in her throat. This would be the most humiliating part of all, far worse than the beatings. Her bedroom was no safe place.

She waited, not daring to breathe. But James didn’t come.

She listened for tires in the driveway as the minutes marched by slowly, ever so slowly, ever so slowly. Twenty minutes crept by, then thirty, with no sound but muffled noises from Jamie’s bedroom and the faint echo of the television downstairs. Finally, she mustered the courage to sneak out to the catwalk that overlooked the family room. She saw James passed out in his leather recliner, remote in hand, television blaring. For the first time all night, she felt relief flood her body. She had survived. She would confront him with his behavior in the morning, after he sobered up. He would apologize and promise to change. She would beg him to get counseling. And this time she would leave if he didn’t follow through.

She took ten milligrams of Ambien and headed back to bed. Tara was not home yet, but she would come in quietly. You don’t make a big scene when you’re supposed to be grounded.

Trish would later tell police that the Ambien took less than thirty minutes to work its magic, knocking her out cold. It always brought about a deep sleep, she said, chasing the world’s troubles away until dawn.

So deep, in fact, that she never heard the gunshots.

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Ellen-oceanside More than 1 year ago
Trish wonders why she is living like this, a husband with an unruly temper. Somethings are worth fighting for, was this one. With an 11 year old boy and a 16 year old girl, who was already pushing her boundaries. Survival was the name of the game. What happened Tara, is a new client for the attorney Laura, was this young girl guilty. Love the description of the lawyer, red hair and Irish, trying to get a response from Tara. Delightful, entertaining, yet, the fact is, this was a murder, could we figure out who. Once again Randy doesn't disappoint his readers. The description of the home life, catches you from the first, wanting to help, and now father is out of the picture, surely it wasn't one of them. Do read, enjoy and figure out who and why.
rlighthouse More than 1 year ago
Thriller by Randy Singer                                                                                                                         Leslie Connors is hired to represent Tara, an angry not always truthful teenager who killed her stepfather.  Leslie is less than thrilled with the case when her client is less than honest and wishes her law partner and fiance Brad Carson can help with the case but he is tied up with his own case.  Leslie also faces a startling diagnosis and is willing to face surgery by herself to fix the problem then tell her fiance and have him be willing to live with her diagnosis.  As usual Singer's way of writing leaves the reader with a desire to keep reading to try and figure out the final conclusion.
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harstan More than 1 year ago
Trish Bannister is beaten up by her drunken abusive husband; later she takes a sleeping pill and is passed out when her sixteen year old daughter Tara is also beat up by her step-father. Unlike her mother, Tara doesn¿t like his abuse and admits to shooting him when the cops question her. She swears it was in self-defense because she feared for her life.............. Trish hires Leslie Connors to defend her daughter who is nervous because this is her first murder case and the prosecution wants to try the teen as an adult. While she is trying to come up with Tara¿s defense, the scientific evidence doesn¿t corroborate the teenager¿s story. Leslie is busy making plans to marry the firm¿s founder Brad Carson, but puts her wedding plans on hold when she finds out she has a heart condition that needs surgery and fails to tell her beloved driving a wedge in their relationship.............. Randy Singer has written an exciting legal thriller that rivals the work of John Grisham. Readers learn how lawyers work to present a case that will exonerate their client while the defense attorney in charge of the case balances her health issues and her relationship with the man she loves. Both Brad and Leslie should be continuing characters in their own legal series if SELF-INCRIMINATION is any example.............. Harriet Klausner