Under My Helmet: A Football Player's Lifelong Battle with Bipolar Disorder
An athlete’s battle with mental illness.

Ever since he was a child, Keith O’Neil wanted to play football. Born on the same day that his father, Ed O’Neil, was cut from the New England Patriots, football was all Keith could think about . . . aside from his anxiety.

Offered a scholarship to Northern Arizona University, O’Neil jumped at the chance to prove himself. Though it wasn’t a Division I-A school, he brought his all, achieving first-team All-Big Sky choice as a junior and senior and earning All-American honors. The Dallas Cowboys offered O’Neil an invite to rookie mini-camp. But while learning the playbook, his anxiety and insomnia returned. Even so, he made the team as an undrafted free agent. His dream had come true.

Yet, sleepless nights, constant anxiety, and suicidal thoughts clouded his mind. O’Neil considered stepping away from the game multiple times, even speaking to his coach, Bill Parcells. Parcells gave him the wisdom that “Everyone has a demon in their head, and we have to beat that demon. Beat the demon!” After being released from the Cowboys, O’Neil spent time with the Colts and Giants but still could not escape his inner demons. It finally became too much for him to handle, and he decided to walk away from the game. It wasn’t until sometime later that he was finally diagnosed: bipolar I disorder. Finally, everything made sense.

Under My Helmet is the personal story of a man working every day to prove his worth while struggling with a debilitating—and undiagnosed—mental illness. O’Neil’s voice is honest and open as he shares his battles and the steps he’s taken to overcome adversity.
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Under My Helmet: A Football Player's Lifelong Battle with Bipolar Disorder
An athlete’s battle with mental illness.

Ever since he was a child, Keith O’Neil wanted to play football. Born on the same day that his father, Ed O’Neil, was cut from the New England Patriots, football was all Keith could think about . . . aside from his anxiety.

Offered a scholarship to Northern Arizona University, O’Neil jumped at the chance to prove himself. Though it wasn’t a Division I-A school, he brought his all, achieving first-team All-Big Sky choice as a junior and senior and earning All-American honors. The Dallas Cowboys offered O’Neil an invite to rookie mini-camp. But while learning the playbook, his anxiety and insomnia returned. Even so, he made the team as an undrafted free agent. His dream had come true.

Yet, sleepless nights, constant anxiety, and suicidal thoughts clouded his mind. O’Neil considered stepping away from the game multiple times, even speaking to his coach, Bill Parcells. Parcells gave him the wisdom that “Everyone has a demon in their head, and we have to beat that demon. Beat the demon!” After being released from the Cowboys, O’Neil spent time with the Colts and Giants but still could not escape his inner demons. It finally became too much for him to handle, and he decided to walk away from the game. It wasn’t until sometime later that he was finally diagnosed: bipolar I disorder. Finally, everything made sense.

Under My Helmet is the personal story of a man working every day to prove his worth while struggling with a debilitating—and undiagnosed—mental illness. O’Neil’s voice is honest and open as he shares his battles and the steps he’s taken to overcome adversity.
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Under My Helmet: A Football Player's Lifelong Battle with Bipolar Disorder

Under My Helmet: A Football Player's Lifelong Battle with Bipolar Disorder

Under My Helmet: A Football Player's Lifelong Battle with Bipolar Disorder

Under My Helmet: A Football Player's Lifelong Battle with Bipolar Disorder

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Overview

An athlete’s battle with mental illness.

Ever since he was a child, Keith O’Neil wanted to play football. Born on the same day that his father, Ed O’Neil, was cut from the New England Patriots, football was all Keith could think about . . . aside from his anxiety.

Offered a scholarship to Northern Arizona University, O’Neil jumped at the chance to prove himself. Though it wasn’t a Division I-A school, he brought his all, achieving first-team All-Big Sky choice as a junior and senior and earning All-American honors. The Dallas Cowboys offered O’Neil an invite to rookie mini-camp. But while learning the playbook, his anxiety and insomnia returned. Even so, he made the team as an undrafted free agent. His dream had come true.

Yet, sleepless nights, constant anxiety, and suicidal thoughts clouded his mind. O’Neil considered stepping away from the game multiple times, even speaking to his coach, Bill Parcells. Parcells gave him the wisdom that “Everyone has a demon in their head, and we have to beat that demon. Beat the demon!” After being released from the Cowboys, O’Neil spent time with the Colts and Giants but still could not escape his inner demons. It finally became too much for him to handle, and he decided to walk away from the game. It wasn’t until sometime later that he was finally diagnosed: bipolar I disorder. Finally, everything made sense.

Under My Helmet is the personal story of a man working every day to prove his worth while struggling with a debilitating—and undiagnosed—mental illness. O’Neil’s voice is honest and open as he shares his battles and the steps he’s taken to overcome adversity.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781510716865
Publisher: Skyhorse
Publication date: 08/01/2017
Pages: 248
Product dimensions: 6.00(w) x 9.10(h) x 1.10(d)

About the Author

Keith O’Neil is a retired football player who spent four seasons with the Dallas Cowboys and Indianapolis Colts. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder after his retirement from the NFL, O’Neil is now a public advocate and speaker on mental illness through his 4th and Forever Foundation. He has addressed the Brain & Behavior Research Foundation, the Mental Health Association, the International Bipolar Foundation, and numerous other organizations and schools.

Tony Dungy is a retired football coach, most known for leading the Indianapolis Colts to victory in Super Bowl XLI. He was the first African American head coach to win a Super Bowl, and was elected to the Pro Football Hall of Fame in 2016. Dungy’s memoir, Quiet Strength, was a New York Times bestseller, and he is currently a studio color analyst for NBC’s pregame show, Football Night in America.

Table of Contents

Author's Note ix

Foreword Tony Dungy xi

Introduction xv

Chapter 1 The Bear 1

Chapter 2 I-A 13

Chapter 3 Me vs. World (Others, Trains, Myself, Etc) 23

Chapter 4 Pipe Dreams and No Sleep 39

Chapter 5 Scrappy and Dangerous 53

Chapter 6 Beat the Demon 61

Chapter 7 New Beginnings and the True End 75

Chapter 8 The Real Season Starts 97

Chapter 9 Diagnosis 111

Chapter 10 A Life of Its Own 129

Chapter 11 How Do You Even Know Your Name? 151

Chapter 12 From Chaos Comes Clarity 185

Chapter 13 The Present (2015-2017) 191

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