What Almost Became a Lifestyle

Torture, no love, fear, no life. Resentment, rage, anger, payback! Abandonment, rejection, I’m lost! My tears eventually dried out, wanting to cry but having no way to vent or get it out. Rape! No help. I had to protect you as a child while being abused by the so-called love of your life. Abuse, cocaine, self-hatred, darkness, numbness, no light. Raped again! But wait, this rape was before I was three, and the other before the age of ten. Who was there to protect me from the acts of these s...