Forever Christmas

They tell mothers like me, a woman whose baby has died, that a new pregnancy will bring a rainbow baby. You know, the beauty after the storm. What they don't say is how hard it's going to be. How scary. How emotional. That at the lowest point, I will completely give up hope. I do have a saving grace. Several, in fact. Gavin, my hot, sex-on-the-kitchen-counter, loves-me-on-my-bad-days husband. He's been with me since the beginning. And I have Jenny and Tina, girlfriends I met along the way. ...