Invisible Threads

Invisible Threads

by Annie Dalton, Maria Dalton

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Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780307433497
Publisher: Random House Children's Books
Publication date: 12/18/2007
Sold by: Random House
Format: NOOK Book
Pages: 208
File size: 283 KB
Age Range: 14 - 17 Years

About the Author

Annie Dalton has written more than 30 novels for children. She has won the Portsmouth Childrens and Nottingham Oak awards, and was commended for the Carnegie Medal. Her bestselling Angels Unlimited series was optioned for a feature film. She lives and writes in the UK.

Maria Dalton is a writer and filmmaker, and has studied at the New York Film Academy. She is the coauthor of Invisible Threads, along with Annie Dalton.

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Today I am sixteen years old. Today I have surpassed her.

Mum is all balloons and cream cakes.

"Come on, Carrie-Anne, love, smile!"

Click, flash, click, flash!

I am still not strong enough to claim my teenage right and roll my eyes, so I oblige, all eyes and teeth; I give her my best celebrity sparkle. With my mouth open and my teeth sharp I could devour her in one bite.

"Doesn't she look lovely?" My mum sighs, nudging my dad with a spiky elbow in his hard rib.

My dad grunts, a hog man hidden behind a broadsheet. He rustles his paper and gives me a pirate wink.

My dad understands me, because he knows my mum. We're comrades. I perform a perfect sashay towards the kitchen. I know my mum is watching my hips move softly side to side. She's envious of my ease and youth.

It's my birthday and I don't have to be nice.

Sarah's soaking cornflakes in a hand-painted Italian bowl. We've never been to Italy, but Mum thinks she can fool the neighbors into thinking our annual family nightmare in Devon is actually an art history tour of Tuscany. I curl my lip.

I'm sixteen today and I can think whatever I want.

Robert shuffles in, followed by a pristinely scrubbed Emma, my Jelly Bean. I am suddenly surrounded by three baby blonds. Sarah has soft curls framing a flower-fairy face. Her twin brother Robert's hair is short and spiky but fluffy like a duckling. Emma has Mum's hair. Fine strands of silk spilling down her back. A fairy-tale princess. She is sunshine.

I look at my golden brother and sisters and feel my darkness eclipse them. I am pitch black, brow and hair. The happy golden siblings are joined by their happy golden parents. Karen and Derek Harris.
Click, flash, click, flash!

"Come on, kids, put your arms around Carrie-Anne. Go on, Emma, give her a big birthday kiss."

If they're her kids, what am I? Her special baby? Her chosen child? I believed that until I was seven and friends began to pick and tease. I quickly realized that the translation and the truth behind my mother's words was: abandoned child, the trash baby who was thrown out with the rest of the crap.
This day, my birthday, reminds me that there is a woman out there, and by bone and by blood I belong to her. I am that woman's shame and regret.

Now I am sixteen and I have surpassed her. I've made it, I haven't messed up. I am clean and safe. I made it. The family history of Carrie-Anne and her mystery mum has a new chapter.

Click, flash, click, flash!


I can hold you anytime I like.

"You can hold that little baby anytime you like." That's what the nurse tells me. She's not one of the hard-cop, soft-cop midwives I had before, just this Irish nurse with a tired face. She says it because she sees I'm upset.

Nine months, close as my own breath, now suddenly you're public property. I can't see you, just their backs in hospital gowns. They're sucking out your lungs with a tube as if you're a piece of plumbing.

"We'll take you onto the ward in a minute, then you can hold her anytime you like. You'll be sick of her by the time you get her home," says the nurse in a soothing voice.

They're still concentrating on you, like mechanics round an engine. The brutal sucking sounds make me want to snatch you back, but they have to do it. It's so you can breathe.

Oh God, oh God, suppose you couldn't breathe? And inside I'm praying, Be OK, baby. Please please be OK.

And you are, you are OK, because they lift me onto this trolley and cover me with a thin white blanket, and I get to hold you again. You're in a little nightie now and not so bloody, but your fuzzy hair is still black, deep jet black like a blackbird's feathers.

It's the first time we've met, yet suddenly we're rattling along corridors together, down ramps, in and out of lifts.

It feels dangerous, it feels out of control. Ceilings and light fittings fly over my head. Alarming sights jump out. Someone vomiting into a dish. Closed curtains with moaning going on behind. Over one woman's bed, a plastic bag of blood drains down through a tube.

The nurse sees me looking. She says, "You're lucky."

She can't have read my notes. I don't tell her I'm not lucky. I look at you instead. You're yawning just like a real person, looking into my eyes with a wondering expression, as if I am exactly the way you thought I'd be.

I touch each tiny curled finger with its perfect transparent fingernail. I stroke your black black hair.
"That'll rub off," laughs the nurse. "She'll be bald as an egg in a couple of weeks."

I'm not listening. I've had a startling thought. "It's my birthday!" I say. "I just remembered." I can't believe I almost forgot my own birthday.

The nurse sighs. "Being a mother will do that to you. Another few months and you'll forget your own name."

I'm still holding your finger. I want us to go on traveling down corridors like this forever, never arriving and always always together like this.

They've fastened a plastic bracelet around your wrist. A label inside says baby bird.
My baby bird, I think. My present from me to me.

Your eyelids glisten as if they've been smeared with Vaseline. I kiss them. You're my baby bird. My birthday present. My unforgettable sixteenth-birthday present.

I open my eyes. The mad clattering of the trolley, the careering sensation stops dead. It's one year later and I'm in a motorway cafe. It's completely bland and impersonal, which is why I chose it. No one to notice a girl sitting too long over her empty cup.

I keep my eyes on my watch. The gold hand flicks flicks around the dial. Around me, people come and go, wiping tables, setting down trays.


I jump. Someone must be taking photographs. But it's just a knife catching the sun. Next time I look at my watch it's 4:30 p.m. You're born! You're out there in the world with your beautiful blackbird hair; somewhere with pink balloons and a cake with one candle and teddy bears. You're born and I can hold you anytime I like.

All I have to do is close my eyes.

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Invisible Threads 2 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 1 reviews.
MickTheChick on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Rarely am I ever really disappointed with a book I read. Not all of them are stellar, but in most cases, I can say that they were at least decent reads. This book was not. It left something to be desired. It just seemed kind of pointless to me. There was no meeting between the mother and the daughter, and there were other random plot lines that seemed to be more central than what was supposed to be the "main" plot line. After all, this book is supposed to be about a girl and her birth mother and the "invisible threads" that tie them together. There didn't seem to be much of a connection between them at all, actually. It was more like the different stories of two random girls who don't know each other at all, but they share the same DNA and that part of the theme is never properly covered. Plus, the guy-girl relationships in the daughter's story with her friends are kind of messed up for no real reason. Overall, I'd say it isn't worth the time.