Lessons on Expulsion

Lessons on Expulsion

by Erika L. Sánchez

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ISBN-13: 9781555977788
Publisher: Graywolf Press
Publication date: 07/11/2017
Pages: 96
Sales rank: 371,692
Product dimensions: 5.90(w) x 8.80(h) x 0.40(d)

About the Author

Erika L. Sánchez has won a “Discovery”/Boston Review Poetry Prize and a Ruth Lilly and Dorothy Sargent Rosenberg Poetry Fellowship from the Poetry Foundation. Her debut novel is forthcoming from Knopf Books for Young Readers. She lives in Chicago.

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CHAPTER 1

Quinceanera

Summer boredom flutters its sticky wings. You guzzle cooking wine, gag on the old whiskey you find in the pantry.
Spring

On the bus to Granada,
I undress in the musty hostel and suck on sour oranges on the unmade bed.

I hear your lit cigarette all the way from the bathroom.
The night you left was hot,
These moments are burnt milk.
Sometimes when I am alone like this,
And I want to hook my fingers in you:
Narco

Highway of Death — the indifference of snakes. Sky is ripe and everywhere the colors are breaking. ¿Quién es el jefe más jefe? In the filmy stillness, Possum-face carries a bucket of heads and spills them like marbles. La yerba, el polvo, las piedras —
La Cueva

The glittering women swing their hips like eternal bells. With pink,
Amá

In One Hundred Years of Solitude,
I'm sorry, Amá.
I packed my bags one night and left without a word.
On my way to Tehuantepec,
In my hand I hold a bird of paradise that I bought from a boy at a crossing.

Ama, I think of you as I watch mountains,
Ama, I leave because I feel like an unfinished poem, because I'm always trying to bridge the difference.

Ama, I wanted to tell you about the parade in Oaxaca that saved me.

About how I looked for your God then mine in the desert,
Letter from New York

Every street — fried meat and onion,
Self-Portrait

In the white cream of my lie,

I swallow warm pennies,

listen to the church bells in the distance —

So much depends upon insertion.

Just look at all this face hunger!

Even my peaches are obscene.

Don't you hear my name dissolve like the body

of Christ?

Siempre salgo con el Jesús en la boca.

Always tearing at the hollyhocks,

always so slick with summer.

Under the corpulent clouds,

I feed the birds of my failures,

so tenderly!

My tongue grows plump as a greedy slug.

Again and again,
opens inside me.

Orifice of heaven —
like a soiled miracle,

bright as my own awful pink,

and how like a fever it dazzles.

Las Pulgas

Santiago Meza Lopez, known as "el Pozolero"
— The New York Times (January 24, 2009)

Even the trees here cringe — a heat sticky like tamarind pulp.

The blindfolded bull is alone again,

walks in dusty circles around the block and tries to lift the cloth by blowing through his nose.

Juárez: behind the Hollywood Club
an elegant skeleton on the back of his silk shirt.

A necklace of dried nipples lies on his chest.

He lowers his head: eyelids tattooed with open eyes.

In the name of the holy ...

The town is named after fleas,
palaces bordered by concrete walls embedded with broken cola bottles.

Next door, Jovita washes shit from the tripe. In the river, she scrubs until it's bright as teeth,

until no excrement remains in the honeycomb pattern.

Jovita's son, the boy nicknamed Mal Hecho —
chasing chickens, huaraches slapping against his cracked feet.

He knocks at every house,
to feed the pigs. When he's finished,
not to touch the broken glass.
spreading their wings and snickers when they squawk ¡cabrón! ¡cabrón!

In a Tijuana club, a young woman straddles a man. He tugs her neon panties,

and she is not shaved but he doesn't care. Black lights flicker, illuminate his teeth,

the acne pits on his cheeks. Everyone moving in slow motion, like an old filmstrip,

like what is happening

couldn't possibly be true. There are mirrors at every angle, everyone multiplied

by 6, 8, 10

impossible to know whose body belongs to whom.

The woman turns around —

Mal Hecho and other boys gather in a burnt-yellow house

at the edge of town where they watch Lucha Libre

on a scrambled screen and cheer as they steady the hanger antenna.

The walls are covered in newspaper —
"El 'Pozolero' pide disculpas."

First, ass in face, then she lowers herself,
wings faded to green on her back. He drags his tongue along his teeth and remembers

how easily a body dissolves in a vat of acid, how first, the flesh breaks away,
The Loop

The silences are copulating again. Look,
Lavapiés

Madrid, Spain

Ripe fruit in my hands at the market. The sharp smell of ginger. I wait six months for him to visit me here, like a body on the verge of fever. My tiny kitchen that week — pots hissing, smoke swirling. The January air slips in from an open window. Broken cinnamon sticks. Frost. After dinner we crush the moist hash, mix it with cheap tobacco, and roll it in rice paper. When we are heavy with lentils and smoke, we braid our bodies together on my twin bed. I dig my face into his beard. The neighbors are yelling in Arabic, and I can't sleep when he is next to me. For breakfast, we eat two slippery eggs and drink coffee with frothy cream. At noon we finally manage to unhook ourselves and leave my apartment. It's Sunday and the streets of Lavapiés are fresh with dog shit, and the bohemians with ragged hair are playing guitar on the corner of Valencia and Miguel Servet. Women wrapped in orange saris are bargaining for vegetables. As we pass the rotisserie chickens in a café window, the three-legged dog follows us, begs us for food. That night on the train to the airport, I watch an ugly baby being breastfed by its gorgeous mother. He nudges me, says to stop staring, stop being rude. I tell him that I'm thinking about his wife, and he asks me if I could stand it and I say yes. At night when he is gone, I massage cocoa butter onto my nipples, rub my shaved legs on clean sheets, hold my fingers in my mouth until I fall asleep. Today I stand in a grocery store digging my nails into a ginger root. Smelling it like a goddamn fool.

Portrait of a Wetback

You cross the viridian scum of river —

   wispy-tongued. The sun

whisking your deepest marrow.

A walk to the horizon
  Helicopters circle and circle above you like buzzards.
You want to preserve this

in a jar of vinegar: the bright skull
  the cloud white as a mistake.

When the guttural
  Xolotl, dog-headed man, god of fire,
hole of a wire fence.

  Look, the gods wait for you

on their haunches.

The lights flash white
as your brittle gaze

   still skins the beauty

from this paradise.

Lessons on Expulsion

I discipline my waist and lean

against the heated coconut.

The day is gray as a face,
clear as the hoofmarks in the carmine.

What is God to me

but an open-mouthed stranger?

I stepped across a viper and still

the forked tongue flickers in my hollow.

You see, my lust

will never know death nor harvest:

elixir of hellebore, colocynth salt, stick,

and mouse shit.

I run in circles and bathe in the hateful river.

This grain, this wild greedy thing

he's left me plumping

so paltry and mulish.

Mercury, mandrake —

I am only a girl

with this brilliant black nest of eagerness.

Over and over, my mother calls to me,

my name

a reckless ribbon in the gloaming.

When the clouds part like stupid lovers,

I close my eyes and press myself against

the eucalyptus tree.

I let the leeches crawl until nightfall.

Hija de la Chingada

1.

The men whistle from their trucks though you're only 13 and your breasts

are still tucked meekly inside you.

Every day after school, the factory men yell
make noises like sucking mangoes.

Technically, you could be a little mother —

But what do you know of sex?
T-shirts and glasses the size of platters.

2.

One evening you come home an hour late

and your mother calls you

hija de la chingada.

Te pregunta ¿en dónde estás abriendo las patas?

What boy have you been fucking?

Your ghost-father sits on the couch cracking peanuts

watching a Mexican gameshow — bugles and maracas,

and big-titted women dancing with a geriatric host.

3.

Finally, when your plump little body wants what it wants,

when you are bent in the arc of desire,

you take a man inside your mouth

in beautiful gulps of summer,

until the shame clicks its way toward you like an ancient insect.

How many times will the rapid pumps leave you heaving

in the bathroom?

4.

When your mother finds a condom in your pocket,
of breaking your teeth.

She tells you this.

Birth control? Aspirina, she says.
5.

Now you say you're a grown woman who can fuck her way across the world,
But when you wrap yourself around your man,
you still ask him to pretend as if you hold a beautiful rapture between your legs.

You still ask him to pretend as if you're human.

(Continues…)



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Table of Contents

Quinceañera 3

Spring 5

Narco 6

La Cueva 7

Amá 8

Letter from New York 10

Self-Portrait 12

Las Pulgas 14

The Loop 17

Lavapiés 18

Portrait of a Wetback 19

Lessons on Expulsion 23

Hija de la Chingada 25

On the Eve of the Tepehuán Revolt 28

To You on My Birthday 30

Baptism 32

Crossing 33

Saudade 37

Orchid 38

The Poet at Fifteen 40

Kindness 42

Kingdom of Debt 45

Love Story 47

A Woman Runs on the First Day of Spring 49

Girl 53

Juárez 55

Self-Portrait 58

Forty-Three 59

Vieques 61

Poem of My Humiliations 62

Circles 64

Hyacinth 66

Capital 68

Donkey Poem 70

Six Months after Contemplating Suicide 72

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