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Set in the steamy, stormy landscape of South Carolina, this is the unforgettable story of one woman’s courageous journey toward truth…
Born and raised on idyllic Sullivan’s Island, Susan Hayes navigated through her turbulent childhood with humor, spunk, and characteristic Southern sass. But years later, she is a conflicted woman with an unfaithful husband, a sometimes resentful teenage daughter, and a heart that aches with painful, poignant memories. And as Susan faces her uncertain future, she realizes that she must go back to her past. To the beachfront house where her sister welcomes her with open arms. To the only place she can truly call home...
About the Author
Dorothea Benton Frank is the New York Times bestselling author of numerous novels, including Sullivan's Island, Plantation, Pawleys Island, Shem Creek, and Isle of Palms. Born and raised on Sullivan's Island in South Carolina, she now resides in the New York area with her husband.
Hometown:New Jersey and Sullivan's Island, South Carolina
Place of Birth:Sullivan's Island, South Carolina
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I began putting my life back together at the feet of my older sister and her family. She lived in Momma's housethe family shrineon the front beach of Sullivan's Island. Every time I went over to the Islandwhich was frequent in the first months after Tom leftI tried to leave the harsh realities of my new life behind me.
My old station wagon rolled slowly across the causeway, liberating my daughter and me from the starched life of the peninsula to the tiny dream kingdom of Sullivan's Island. Black magic and cunja powder swirled invisibly in the air. The sheer mist became the milky fog of my past.
From within the pink and white branches of the overgrown oleanders, which lined both sides of the road, floated the spirits of decades long gone. The haints were still there, just waiting for us in the tall grasses and bushes. Suffice it to say that everything in the Lowcountry was just a-wiggling with life and it wasn't always a warm body.
The spirits urged me to roll down my windows and breathe in the musk-laden drug of the marsh. The scents of plough mud and rotting marsh life filled my senses like a warm shower of rare perfume. Then the sirens sounded their cue and the drawbridge lifted up before us to allow passage for a tall-masted sailboat. We would be detained on the Charleston side for fifteen minutes. I left my car to stand outside and feel the air. Beth stayed in the car listening to the radio.
I walked to the edge of the marsh.The full force of the salty air washed my face and, in an instant, I was a young girl again.
I was hurrying home to my momma and Livvie, my heart already there. The sweet steam of Livvie's simmering okra soup beckoned in a long finger all the way from the back porch. In my mind I heard the voices of my brothers and my sister as we converged on the supper table, all of us bickering in Gullah over the largest piece of cornbread. Livvie ran interference, telling us to hush, warning us that Daddy was coming.
It was odd what I remembered about growing up. My first associations were tied into the smells of the marsh and the aromas of the kitchen. Maybe I should have done fragrance research instead of planning literacy programs at the county library, but I was always more inclined toward saving the world. One thing was for sure, I needed a job that would let me offer my opinions because, according to everybody I knew, that was one area where I excelled.
Livvie. God, not a day passed that I didn't remember her. She raised meall of us, actually. Here was an old Gullah woman who put her own five children through college working as a housekeeper. Just when she should have been thinking retirement, she took on the notorious clan of Hamilton hardheaded ignoramuses. She was the captain of our destiny, redirecting our course as often as needed. With every snap of her fingers we woke up to the truths of life and our own potential a little more. It was because of her that we all loved to read. She'd shake her head and lecture. "Feast your hungry brain with a good book," she'd say. "Quit wasting time! Life's short. Humph!" Humph, indeed. Who was I kidding? It was because of her that we were not all in some treatment program. She had taught us how to thinkno small feat.
She'd probably have had plenty to say if she could have seen Beth and me right now, playing instead of working. I'd told my boss I had a doctor's appointment. A tiny lie. But I had an excellent excuse for playing hooky on this particular weekday afternoon. Heat. Over one hundred degrees every day since last week. We were having a heat wave, Lowcountry style. It felt as if old-fashioned southern cooks were deep-frying us in bubbling oil like a bunch of breaded chickens. One flip of the wrist and the whole of Charleston and its barrier islands sizzled in a cast-iron skillet. We're talking hot, Bubba. Take it from an old Geechee girl. Geechee? That would be someone born in the Lowcountry, which extends from the Ogeechee River down in Georgia clear up to Georgetown, South Carolina. I was raised in the downy bosom of the Gullah culture, as opposed to a Charlestonian reared in the strictures of the Episcopal Church. Big difference. Gullah culture? Ah, Gullah. It's Lowcountry magic. That's all.
Coming to the Island made me feel younger, a little more reckless, and as I finally went back to my car and closed the doorpausing one moment to lower the audio assault of the radioI realized the Island also made me lighthearted. I was willingly becoming re-addicted. As we arrived on the Island, I pointed out the signs of summer's early arrival to Beth, my fourteen-year-old certified volcano.
"Oh, my Lord, look! There's Mrs. Schroeder!" I said. "I can't believe she's still alive." The old woman was draped over her porch swing in her housecoat.
"Who? I mean, like, who cares, Mom? She's an old goat!"
"Well, honey, when you're an old goat like her, you will. Look at her, poor old thing with that wet rag, trying to cool her neck. Good Lord. What a life."
"Shuh! Dawg life better, iffin you ask me!"
I smiled at her. Beth's Gullah wasn't great, but we were working on it.
"This 'eah life done been plan by Gawd's hand, chile," I said.
It was a small but important blessing how the Gullah language of my youth had become a communication link to her. A budding teenager was a terrible curse for a single parent, especially given the exotic possibilities of our family's gene pool. But speaking Gullah had become a swift ramp to her soul.
Gullah was the Creole language developed by West Africans when they were brought to the Lowcountry as slaves. While it mostly used English words in our lifetime, it had a structure and cadence all its own and most especially it had many unforgettable idiomatic expressions.
It was spoken by Livvie, taught to us, and we passed on the tradition to our own children. We used it to speak endearing words to each other, to end a small disagreement or to ignite memories of the tender time we spent with Livvie. When I was Beth's age every kid on the Island spoke Gullah to some extent, at least those lucky enough to have someone like Livvie.
I stopped at the corner for some gas at Buddy's Gulf Station, the Island institution renowned for price gouging on everything from gasoline to cigarettes. We got out of the car, I to perform the elegant task of pumping the gas and Beth to get a cold Coke. A group of old Island salts were ogling the thermometer in front of Buddy's store. One of the old men called out to Buddy.
"Jesus! If it's this hot in June, what's August gone be like?"
"Gone sell y'all a loada ice, 'eah?" Buddy said.
"Gone be hotter than the hinges on the back door of hell, that's what!" the old man shot back. "Humph!"
I smiled, listening to them. They sounded the same as Islanders had sounded for generations, same accent, same lilt in their speech. Traces of Gullah phrasing. It was my favorite music.
As we drove down the Island I decided to take Atlantic Avenue to check the horizon, watch the shrimp boats and container ships. Today's slow ride did not disappoint us. Boats were everywhere. I pointed them out to Beth. It was the whole world, these container ships, coming and going from our busy port as they had done for centuries. She nodded with me in agreement. First, that it was beautiful, second, that we were lucky to be there.
Along our drive by the water, we passed ten or so young mothers pulling their offspring home in wagons from the sweltering beaches, hopping from one bare foot to the other on the blistering asphalt roads.
"How stupid is that?" Beth said.
"Shoot, Momma, even I know not to go to the beach without flip-flops or sandals! God, they must be dying!"
"Please. Don't use the Lord's name, unless you're in prayer. It's a hundred years in purgatory."
"I'm an adult and personally responsible for my own immortal soul."
"Whatever." She made one of those sounds of disgust, the kind that could be confused with indigestion, used for running defense against parental dominance.
Beth. This child got the cream of our genetic smorgasbord. She inherited the Asalit blue eyes, a shade of chestnut hair with more red and wave than mine, my brains and grapefruits (bosoms), Maggie's tiny waist and when she finally stops growing she could be five feet, nine inches. She was a colt, all legs and a shiny coat, looking for a place to run. She was really beautiful to watch and she worked it too, pulling all her poor momma's chains.
"Two hundred years of Catholicism coursing in your veins is gonna make a lady out of you if it's the last thing I do," I said.
"Well, at least you're not trying to make me a nun," she said with some relief.
"Honey, I wouldn't encourage my worst enemy to the doors of a convent."
"Come on, Momma, step on it. I'm dying to go to the beach! It's so hot I could scream!"
I was just cruising along, enjoying the scene before me and looking around to see if I knew anyone. The Island had changed so much from when I was a child, but thankfully all the attempts to make it slick like Hilton Head or Kiawah had failed. Part of me depended on that. If it stayed the same I still owned it, even though my sister, Maggie, got the Island Gamble.
Maggie had laid claim to our ancestral home when our mother closed her eyes for the last time. I got the haunted mirror and that seemed like a fair trade to me. The rest of us had always known Maggie would walk those floors in adulthood. She would raise her children within the same rooms. Tradition was as much a part of her makeup as rebellion was of ours.
Digging roots off the Island had been essential to my sanity. I would have tied that house up in a bow and given it to her rather than live there. There were too many ghosts in the paneling, too many tears in the pipes. I had too much energy to stay, and back then I had no desire to reconcile the issues. No, there was no argument from me on who should get the house. If Maggie wanted itand I would never understand why until I was well into my thirtiesit was just fine with me. I had run an entire seven miles away from home to Charleston. But seven miles from this Island was another world.
At last, I pulled up in the backyard next to Maggie and Grant's boat and tooted the horn to announce our arrival. The back door swung open and Maggie called down to us from the back porch.
"Susan! Beth! Where have y'all been?" She waved, smiling at seeing us.
She looked frighteningly like a nineties version of June Cleaver, Beaver's mom, only with frosted blond hair. I hated to admit it, but she was beautiful and always had been. She had Bermuda blue eyes like all the Asalits. A natural blond toned to a perfect size six, she was pleased to no end with her life. Maggie was hopelessly lost in a Talbot's world of flowered skirts and hand-knitted sweaters. She was the president of the Garden Club and active with the Junior League. Even though we disagreed on everything from politics to the merits of duck decoy collecting, when her blue eyes met mine, we were family.
"Getting gas at Buddy's and smelling the marsh," I said, gathering up all the towels and tote bags. "Got caught by the bridge again."
"That awful old bridge! Y'all come on in! Beth, the boys are waiting. You want to go crabbing? Tide's perfect!"
"Ab! I brought my bathing suit." Beth grabbed her straw beach bag and pushed past us to find her cousins.
"In the parlance of today's young people, ab is short for absolutely," I said. "God, is it hot or what? Thanks for letting us invade your afternoon. I thought I was gone die in Charleston. It's so hot in the city the blacktop sinks under your feet."
"Y'all moving in? Let me help you with some of that."
"Thanks," I said.
I followed her up the steep steps into the kitchen; my eyes struggled to adjust to the low light inside.
"I hate the heat too. Well, this summer's gonna be a scorcher, I guess. You want something cold to drink?" Maggie opened the door of the refrigerator and pulled out a pitcher of iced tea.
"Please." I reached for two glasses from the cabinet and handed them to her. "No Diet Pepsi?"
"Picky, picky. No, I have to go to the store."
"Tea's fine. I'm gonna change into some shorts and hit the porch."
"Okay. Wanna go for a swim?"
"Maybe later. First I have to calm down and cool off."
"Tom?" Maggie cleared her throat with a knowing "ahem." I hated that little "ahem" thing she did.
"Who else?" I leaned against the counter as she poured, feeling embarrassed that my whole life had spun clean out of control.
"What's happened now?"
"Maggie, you should've been a shrink. I can't keep dumping stories on you about him. I'm gonna drive you crazy. Let's just say that he's still a son of a bitch." I took a long drink of the tea. "Thanks. I'll meet you on the porch. Can you sit awhile?"
"You bet. Let me just start the dishwasher and marinate the steaks for tonight. Grant got a new grill for Father's Day and wants to break it in."
"I wish he'd break it in by putting Tom Hayes's behind on a spit," I said, thinking that I'd been muttering a lot lately. "See you on the porch."
I sprawled out in her Pawley's Island hammock, using my heel to kick off from the porch banister. The hammock, a testimony to the practical application of macramé, was like all the ones that have hung on the western end of this porch since I was a child. Hammocks were generally undervalued, except in the South and probably the Amazon. There was nothing like crawling in, stretching out and swinging away your troubles.
I closed my eyes and began daydreaming about the porch. If this porch were hanging on the side of my house in the city, it would be a veranda. But over here on the Island, it was a porch. That general lack of pretension was one more feature that made the Island so appealing.
I could be blinded and still find everything here. If I hopped out of the hammock, I could take three steps and sink into one of the two old metal frame chairs, the kind that bounced a little. There was an ancient coffee table between the chairs and the glider. If I wanted to perch in the bench swing that hangs from the other end, or park myself in a rocker, I would only have to stretch out my right arm and follow the ferns that Maggie had hung in perfect intervals above the banister.
The only differences between the porch of today and the one of forty years ago were the ceiling fans that moved the air around, making the suffocating heat bearable, and the fresh coat of paint on the furniture and the floor. In my day, nothing much was shiny. Whatever Maggie didn't decorate, Grant painted. The porch used to be entirely screened in with doors to the outside, but Grant and Maggie took them off. The house looked wonderful without them and nobody seemed to mind an occasional yellow jacket. Even the most persnickety old-timers on the Island agreed that Maggie and Grant had done a great job with the house. You have to understand that the old Islanders were highly suspicious of any sort of change. Busybodies. After all, Grant was from Columbia, and what in the world would he know about historic beach houses? But, they crept around, one by one, with a pound cake or some fresh fish as a house gift, to see what Maggie and Grant were up to. In the end, they all said that Maggie and Grant had done all right.
Like many of the older houses on the Island, this one had its own name: the Island Gamble. Living on the edge of the Atlantic Ocean, our house had its own tide that rose, fell, foamed, swirled and, at times, went mad. Everything inside and outside was suffused with the smell of salt water and sea life. The Island Gamble was very nearly a living, breathing thing.
Our mother's parents, Sophie and Tipa Asalit, were its second owners, its first being a lady of dubious background. Legend holds that she entertained a handsome sea captain here for a prolonged period of time while her husband was in Philadelphia on business. It must've been true, because when Tipa and our father renovated the house they found torrid love letters between the floorboards and thousands and thousands of Confederate dollars.
Island Gamble. Our grandmother had always hated the name. She said it made us sound like a bunch of hooligans. The argument was one of the few times that our grandfather ever stood up to her, that I knew of anyway. He insisted that the name not be changed, suggesting it was tampering with history to remove it. Lord knows why he picked that battle to fight, given the number of hissing matches she started, but the name remained and the Island Gamble has belonged to our family for nearly one hundred years. At first it was our family's summer house, but when Grandma Sophie became frail, Tipa moved her from the city to the beach permanently, believing the salt air would do her some good.
The Island Gamble was a sentinel; she stood tall with a commanding view of Charleston harbor and Fort Sumter. Her white clapboards made up three stories, built in the old Island style that only God could pull asunder. Her wide hips were wraparound porches and her French doors swung open for airflow. The most interesting original details were her cupola and widow's walk on the top of the house. They sat up there like a bonnet on her lovely head. When I was little, I used to climb up there to hide from everyone to write in my journals, privacy being a precious commodity in those days.
In our family, the birth of every new baby was preceded by a building frenzy. Our grandfather, with the help of our father, added rooms to the sides or off the back like a line of freight train cars. Our house was kind of crazy looking, the patchwork quilt of our family's history. She gave the impression she could withstand anything and, indeed, she had weathered scores of hurricanes, sheltered many broken hearts and played host to hundreds of people in her history. Her heart had harbored too many secrets for my blood, but I seemed to be the only one really bothered by that.
"Oh, if these walls could talk ..." people would say.
And I'd say, If these walls started talking, the entire Island would be put under quarantine while the government moved in an army of psychiatrists.
But there were marvelous things about this place too. The hammock, for one, was extremely comforting, and Maggie was a great friend to let me come here to nurse my wounded heart. I didn't sleep too well these days with all that I'd had on my mind. I tossed and turned in my bed in the city, but the nightly visualization of this porch and hammock always helped me make headway toward some peace.
Just as I was about to drift off for a little desperately needed shut-eye, the screen door slammed.
"You want me to paint your toenails?" Maggie had arrived to cure me with a cosmetics bag and a tray of food. I looked down at my feet and shrugged in agreement.
"They look bad, 'eah? Whatcha got in that basket? Feed me, I'm starving."
'Eah. Great Gullah word, versatile like anything. It means here, yes, right now, do you hear me, isn't it so, don't you agree and just about anything you want it to.
"You don't look to me like you're starving, although you do look thinner," she said.
"Okay, you can paint my toenails if it makes you feel better."
These days, if anyone told me I looked thinner, I became the most agreeable sort of woman you knew. I got up from the hammock and inspected the snacks.
"Sit 'eah and I'll pour you some more tea."
I took a stalk of celery and dipped it in fat-free ranch dressing. Maggie pointed to the glider for me to sit in and began a replay of our childhood ritual. She wadded up pieces of Kleenex and stuck them between my toes. Then she moaned in disgust about my corns and calluses, while she buffed them away. Next, she lectured me on cuticles while she clipped and finally, thank the Lord, she applied a base coat followed by two layers of some color she got as a gift with purchase from Lancôme. She always felt better when she could work on my appearance.
"I've lost twelve pounds," I told her as she applied the top coat.
"I see it in your ankles."
Of course, if she lost twelve pounds, she'd look cadaverous. "Thanks a lot," I said.
"I can see it in your face too," she said, smiling angelically, like a diet counselor from Jenny Craig. "Listen, twelve pounds is a lot, 'eah? Turkeys weigh twelve pounds! How'd you do it?"
"Swell. I've only got a few more turkeys to go. I'm counting fat grams. Can I have a tomato?"
"Well, you're looking much better!" Maggie twisted the top of the nail polish bottle back in place and offered me the Sweetgrass basket filled with raw vegetables. "'Eah, try one. They're fabulous!"
I got up carefully, trying not to wreck my pedicure, chose a deep red one, and hobbled back to the hammock. Twisting off the stem, I chomped through its rosy skin like an apple. The juice escaped at once and ran down my chin, seeds and all. I lifted the hem of my T-shirt, exposing my hadn't-seen-the-sun-in-decades pink stomach, and wiped my face. Maggie watched, just shaking her head. What did she know? I knew I was still a bit of a femme fatale. Okay. Truth. I knew my ability to break hearts was momentarily eclipsed by my unfortunate girth. I ignored her and lost myself in the joyous simplicity of munching on a perfectly vine-ripened tomato.
"Damn! This is so good! Dee-vine! Where'd you get 'em? Are they Better Boys?"
"Yep. Mr. Andregg brought 'em over from his garden as a thank-you for ten pounds of blue mackerel the boys and Grant caught last week."
She reached for a tomato for herself, wrapped it in a napkin, and took a small bite. No drip. I ignored that too.
"Keep those boys in the river! Where's the salt shaker?"
"You don't need salt. Bad for your blood pressure and makes you retain water."
"Right. You're right. So I only have a thousand more pounds to go and I'll look like my old self. Any suggestions? I mean, I'm starving myself on twenty fat grams a day and my butt is shrinking with glacier speed ..."
"Forget fat grams ... just eat what you want in moderation."
"I can't forget them if I ever want to get laid again," I said under my breath.
I sat up a bit and looked out over the railing toward the ocean. The sight always took my breath away. The dark green velvet of the front yard contrasted with the radiant white of the sand dunes that separated the family's property from the beach. The white mounds cut a wavy line across the deep blue of the Atlantic, like the finger paint of a child in his first attempt to create something beautiful. Feathery sea oats grew in clumps across their tops. The water glistened and the sun danced on the phosphorus. An illusory field of diamonds.
"You know, this must be the most beautiful place on this earth," I said, realizing my voice was barely a whisper.
"I hope you don't talk like that in front of my niece."
"What? That this is gorgeous?"
"No, Susan, your reference to your sex life. Beth doesn't need to 'eah that."
"Maggie, my sex life is nonexistent. Besides, she's barely fourteen! Beth is clueless about that stuff."
"Trust me. She's not clueless. Remember when you were fourteen and had that mad crush on Simon?"
"I need a cigarette. Where'd you hide my purse?"
"It's under the hammock. I wish you wouldn't smoke. It's nasty."
I nearly fell out of the hammock trying to reach my purse and, finally having retrieved it, I dug out my Marlboro Lights and my old Zippo. I lit it and exhaled away from Maggie.
"Give it up, Maggie," I said. "You can't cure me in one day."
"I'm not trying to cure you," she said with all the indignation of an older sister, "but you should try the patch or that gum. Nobody smokes anymore, Susan, in case you haven't noticed."
"Right. Have you heard from Simon lately?"
"Not since Christmas. Let's call him. He's living in Atlanta now, you know. Who knows? Maybe his marriage is on the rocks!"
I had to giggle at the thought of calling Simon. "I've got my cell phone right 'eah! Got his number?" I said with bravado.
"No, but I've got yours. Big talker."
She raised her eyebrows at me. Maggie had been a saint since Tom left me three months ago, but with the single lift of that brow, she let me know she knew I was a chicken.
"You're right. I'm not ready for men yet, even Simon. Men still stink." I drained my glass and flicked my cigarette butt over the rail, regretting it the second I did it, knowing it landed in her roses. "Sorry. I'll get it later."
"Don't worry about it."
"Yeah, Simon. God, he was cute, 'eah? I'd love to see him again. Maybe that little girl he married ran away or something."
"Well, his card didn't say anything about her, just that he was in Atlanta to teach a course on rare viruses and fevers or something at Emory."
"Oh. Do you know that man hasn't written me in over ten years?"
Simon, Simon, I thought. I wondered if he still had all his hair. When he was young he had the almighty head of silky brown hair. God, I loved him, for years and years. He must be fifty by now. I felt the heat surge again. Although the tide was coming in, there wasn't a breath of air to be had.
"Guess who did call?" I said.
"Let me guess ..."
"Henry," I said before she could answer.
"Our dahlin' baby brother? What's up with him?"
"Well, bless his mercenary little heart, he just wanted to know if I needed anything. Is that nice, or what?"
"It's out of character, that's what," Maggie said.
"Well, normally I would be highly suspicious, but he was sincere, I think. Maybe Paula doesn't have any more plastic surgery left to do and he doesn't know what to do with his money."
"We're terrible," Maggie said.
"Yeah." The heat was paralyzing. "Maggie, was it this hot when we were kids? I don't remember it ever being this hot."
"I hate to break this to you, but you're getting older. Have you had your estrogen checked?"
I looked over at her stirring her tea like the Queen of England. I took the bait.
"Estrogen? Maggie, I'm barely forty-something."
"The first indication of menopause is a broken thermostat. It's either that or your weight. In any case, if you don't do something, you could be dead by August."
"God, middle age is an unending insult."
I closed my eyes and pretended to nap. It took about two seconds for me to sense her towering over me, her and her "I'm-a-self-help-book-waiting-to-be-published" lips. I opened my weary eyes.
"What is it?" I said rather testily. "What now?"
She just stood there, feigning mild offense, waiting for me to beg her to tell me how to fix my life. Her wheels cranked and turned in her head over the gentle rustling of the palmetto fronds and the incoming waves. She drove me crazy sometimes.
"Nothing," Her Highness said, and heaved a deep sigh. She sighed the same way our mother used to. An unfair advantage.
"Come on, Maggie, spit it out. You're gonna choke if you don't." She sauntered back to the coffee table and poured me another glass of tea. She dropped a lemon in the glass and handed it to me. I pushed it in with my finger, realizing I was being a little difficult. "Okay, I'm sorry," I said. "I admit it. Nobody has ever done more for me than Livvie Singleton and you. So tell me what you're thinking, besides that it would be nice if it were eighty degrees instead of a billion."
"Susan, you have a serious opportunity here."
I just stared at her.
"You do," she said. "Come on, let's rock."
"What do you mean 'opportunity'? What I've got is a daughter with probable simmering hormones, a stack of bills you could lay end on end to Charlotte that Tom won't help me pay, a backside that looks like thunderous Jell-O, no matter how I starve the thing. All I do is worry. Forgive me, but I'm having a hard time finding the opportunity in all this." I was prepared to mount my high horse now and she knew it. I took a seat in the rocker next to her.
"The butt's easy to fix, just walk to work instead of driving." She was perfectly calm, as though dealing with the borderline deranged,
"You're probably right ..."
"And the exercise would do you a world of good, give you a chance to think about how to handle the rest of the stuff. Exercise is good for your brain."
"I know. You're right, you're right, you're right. But, Maggie, it's easier for you to see what I need to do than it is for me to do it!"
"Susan, listen 'eah! Do you know how many women would trade in their husbands if they had the gonads?"
"Yeah, but I never wanted to trade Tom, he traded me, remember?"
"Minor point. The fact is, what are you gonna do about it? First of all, it's been three months. Do you have a separation agreement yet?"
"No, I'm not ready for that."
"Well, if he wanted to come home, would you let him?"
I looked out at the ocean again, remembering the good things about my marriage to Tom. The way he kissed, the way it felt to be in his arms. But then, I remembered finding him in bed with his young thing and I felt my heartbeat quicken from the anxiety of his betrayal. I drained my glass. The boulder in my throat made it hard to talk about a separation agreement.
"Remember how Livvie used to say that if you rocked a chair when you weren't in it, you rocked away your life?" I said. "That always spooked me."
I avoided giving the decision and Maggie was having no part of it.
"Because you were wasting time, is what she meant. And let me tell you something else, Livvie Singleton would beat you to a pulp if she could see the time you're wasting now. She raised us to spit in the faces of those who did us wrong, not to get fat and depressed and lie around moaning. Tom Hayes is a bum and the sooner you realize it and do something about it, the sooner you can rebuild your life. If Livvie was 'eah, she'd tell you to buck up!"
"Don't mince words now. Tell me how you really feel."
"I'm sorry, Susan, it needs to be said. You're my closest sister and I love you. Now, for once and for all, if Tom came to you and said he was sorry, would you take him back? Please, think this through, because if you'd forgive him, so would I."
I had given hundreds of hours of thought to how it would be if Tom came home. I might forgive him but I had come to the conclusion that I'd never trust him again. A good marriage was impossible without trust, I knew that.
"No, I'd never take him back now, Maggie. No, it went too far and he's just been awful to us. He's the one who screwed another woman in our bed and walked out."
"Are you absolutely sure?"
"Yes, I'm sure. If I took him back, he'd just do it again the first time some bubble wit lifts her Wonder Bra in his direction. Who needs it?"
"You're ready. I'll get you a list of lawyers and you can start interviewing them next week."
"Okay." I inhaled the healing salt of the beach and exhaled my soured marriage. "I just hate dealing with this, you know?'
"I know, I don't blame you for that at all." Maggie reached over, patted my arm and continued. "Look, a family breakup is a tragedy, no doubt about it, but you don't have cancer, you've got a great job and you have Beth. What's he got? Some stupid twit! Big deal! Sounds to me like he's the loser, not you."
"I hope he rots in hell."
"That's the spirit!" Maggie started cleaning up. She took our glasses and put them on the tray and, balancing it, wiped the tabletop with a napkin. "You need a new haircut."
Having someone who always told me what I needed was a little exasperating, but I knew it didn't pay to call her on it.
"You're right, I need to do something about my looks. But that tightwad I need to serve with papers still has the five bucks his Aunt Helen gave him for his tenth birthday! I need another job or something."
"Or a bulldog lawyer, somebody with zero sense of humor."
"Yeah, with big teeth who's got the guts to tear a big piece out of his miserable carcass. Wait! Don't take the celery! You want a hand with that? Where are our children? It's getting late."
"You just relax, I can handle this. I guess they'll be home soon. Listen, if they caught anything, why don't you stay for supper? Crab cocktails and grilled steaks? Not the worst meal on earth."
"Sounds good," I said. "Hey, Maggie?" I stared at her while I dug around for the right words. "I'm gonna get a lawyer. I just have to find the right person and I have to find my nerve, you know?"
"Since when have you had a problem finding nerve?"
"Very funny. What I mean to say is that I really appreciate your advice."
She smiled at me. "Well, you know your own mind. You always have. I just don't want to see you victimized again."
"I was never victimized. I just married the biggest ass in South Carolina and was too bullheaded to see it."
"Well put by the family poet!" Maggie smiled at me again. "I just want you to be yourself again, you know? Like a bad dog, chasing cars. I miss that about you. I mean, what would you do if you could do anything with your life? Like, change careers?"
She balanced the tray on her hip, held the screen door open and challenged me to come clean.
"I don't know. Maybe ... oh, shoot, Maggie, I don't know."
"Well, think about it, little sister. There's a new world out there if you want it. Seize the day and all that. Livvie didn't raise us to wallow."
"You're right. Hey, you know, on the growing list of things I intend to do with my life is another tidbit."
"Yeah, what's that?"
"I'm gonna figure out what happened to Daddy."
She ran her fingers through her hair and looked at me like I had said something foul. "Give it up, Susan," she said. "Daddy's been dead for decades."
"That's not it, Maggie," I said. "I just have to know that I didn't cause it."
"Susan. I'm your sister. I love you...."
"I know that...."
"You need to concentrate on other things. Daddy died of a heart attack. Period."
I hated when she looked at me like that, taking the posture that her word was the final one on the subject. So I said, "It ain't period. It's a question I have to resolve for my own soul."
"Suit yourself. But I think your time's better spent on other avenues," she said.
"Whatever. But, I'm telling you I know in my guts that Daddy was murdered," I said.
"Susan, ain't nobody on this planet who loves you more than me but I'm telling you I can't stand to listen to this."
"Maggie," I said, "I can't stand to think it. I have to know that the fight didn't cause him to die. I have to believe it was the Klan."
"What is this fight you always refer to? I don't know what you're talking about!"
She was becoming agitated. It was suddenly clear that for some reason she didn't remember the fight. Maybe she had blocked it from her mind. I didn't know. I just wanted the waters smooth again.
"Never mind," I said, "I'll figure it out someday."
"Well, my advice is worry about the living. The dead had their chance."
"Whoa, that's cold," I said.
"No, it's not. I care about you and Beth. That's all." She went inside. The door slammed behind her with a loud thwack and the sound of wood slapping wood woke me up like a sock in the jaw. Maggie had just succinctly reduced my life to an ancient Latin maxim and some hard facts. She was right about Livvie too. Livvie would be incensed to have seen me rolling around in my despair of chocolate chip cookies and fast food for the past three months.
Maggie was always right. When all hell broke loose, Maggie was right there at my side. She'd taken Beth under her wing too. She had listened to me wail and moan ad nauseam. It was enough now. I looked defeated and that had never been a word in my vocabulary.
It's just that my head was in gridlock at the thought of a new life. I was a little afraid, you know? What if I failed? What if I couldn't take care of Beth? What if she went wild and flunked out of school and got pregnant? What if this was all there was? O Lord, I prayed, help me figure this out!
I peeled myself up from the rocker, knowing the slats had left their imprint on the back of my legs. I decided to throw one leg over the banister and straddled it like a horse, hanging on to a support beam, the same way I did when I was a child. The tide was almost high and its power was mesmerizing. I wished I could have some of it for myself.
The waves had now grown from the baby hiccups they were at low tide to crashing rollers, and washed everything in their path with silvery foam. They began down at the eastern end of the Island at Breach Inlet. Danger, danger. People drowned in whirlpools and ebb tides there every year in spite of posted warnings. Didn't people read?
I knew that attempting to investigate Daddy's death was dangerous too, but the compulsion to do so was growing each day. Of all the stones I carried in the sack tied to my heart, his death was the heaviest. I had told Maggie it was a personal guilt thing, but the guilt stemmed from being the only one who seemed to care if he had died at all, never mind how. Added to that was. Tom's deception, which only exacerbated my thirst for truth.
The waves arrived in stacked sets of three, the current driving them in on an angle. As they reached our end of the Island, they seemed to calm in the faint, sweeping beams of the lighthouse. Turning tides were hypnotic. The water flooded the shore in anger, then turned, withdrew and renewed itself.
The beams from the lighthouse grew in intensity, spreading protection for boats at sea. It was in these moments that I was sure there was a God. He was tapping me on my stubborn shoulder, telling me the scene before me was a metaphor for my own life. Withdraw and renew; life goes on. Maybe Beth and I would stay for dinner, crack some crabs, grill steaks and shoot the breeze. Maggie was right. I needed to reinvent myself. The question was, could this old dog still hunt?
I could just see Beth and Maggie's boys now, coming down the beach in silhouette against the edge of dusk. They were swinging a basket of crabs and a bucket of bait. It could have been a photograph of our childhood, the happy days. So many days I spent with Maggie, Timmy and Henry, catching fish and crabs, throwing plough mud at each other ... those were, I think, my happiest memories. We'd come home all sunburned and sticky and present Momma and Livvie with our catch of the day. They'd act like we were heroes for feeding the family. We were so proud.
And then there was our daddy, Big Hank.
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This moving story of love, of heritage and home...is a wonderful book.
Southern womanhood has found a new voice.
Dottie Frank's tale on the South Carolina Low country is tough, tender, achingly real, and very, very funny.
Reading Group Guide
Sullivan's Island is a real place, a barrier island seven miles off the coast of Charleston, South Carolina. Home to Fort Moultrie, which is known for its role in the American Revolution and the Civil War, it is also called the "Ellis Island of Slavery" as over 200,000 slaves from the west coast of Africa entered our country on its shores between 1770 and 1775. As a young soldier, Edgar Allen Poe was stationed at Fort Moultrie and wrote The Gold Bug during that time. It is said the island is a haunted place, populated with the ghosts of broken hearts and lives of untold courage.
Dorothea Benton Frank's first novel, Sullivan's Island combines the stories of love and family with history and place. Set in 1963 and in 1999, it compares and contrasts coming of age in the tumultuous early sixties to coming of age in the peace of the early nineties. It introduces the Gullah Culture to many people for the first time and explains its significance in forming the traditions and values of the island children, which they carry into their adult lives. Sullivan's Island looks at the rigors of Catholicism during the early sixties, shattered childhood innocence, betrayal and revenge and the magic of Lowcountry life.
The protagonist, Susan Hamilton Hayes is in her early forties when we meet her. She is the wife of Tom, a prominent Charleston attorney and the mother of their daughter, Beth. In the prologue, we watch her life implode and then watch and learn how she puts it back together with great humor and pure grit.
We travel back with her to revisit the bitter disappointments of her childhood until she discovers decades later that those juvenile conundrums and challenges gave her the strength to face her adult years. And, most of those lessons were taught to her by Livvie Singleton, an African American woman, descended from slavery.
The Lowcountry itself as important as any character in Sullivan's Island, because its rich history and great beauty teach all the characters who they are and where they belong on the planet. Perhaps most importantly, the Lowcountry and the night sky ofSullivan's Island guide the characters to connect with the spiritual side of life and show them that love never dies.
ABOUT DOROTHEA BENTON FRANK
Dorothea Benton Frank grew up on Sullivan's Island, South Carolina and is the author of three NY Timesbestselling novels—Sullivan's Island (Jove 2000), Plantation (Jove 2001) and Isle of Palms (Berkley 2003). All of her Lowcountry Tales feature a powerful sense of place and strong female characters who tackle life with a healthy sense of humor. Pat Conroy hailed Sullivan's Island as hilarious and wise and Anne Rivers Siddons said it roars with life.
She has been a member of the NJ State Council on the Arts and the Drumthwachet Foundation, both appointments made by the Governor of NJ and currently serves as a member of the NJ Cultural Trust. In addition, she is a trustee of the Montclair Art Museum in Montclair, NJ, the Margaret Mitchell House in Atlanta GA and a member of Writers for Readers, a group that sponsors Literacy Partners in New York. A long time supporter of the arts and education, Ms. Frank has also served on the boards of The American Stage Company, The NJ Chamber Music Society, The Bill T. Jones/Arnie Zane Dance Company, The Community Foundation of NJ and others.
She is married to Peter Frank, the mother of two teenagers and they divide their time between South Carolina and the New York area. She invites readers to visit her web site at www.dotfrank.com.
Praise for the novels of Dorothea Benton Frank:
"Her books are funny, sexy, and usually DAMP WITH SEA WATER."— Pat Conroy
"ONE HECK OF A BEACH BOOK...Frank keeps you reading compulsively."—Charlotte Observer
"BLAZINGLY AUTHENTIC...A rich read."—Publishers Weekly
"Sullivan's Island ROARS WITH LIFE."— Anne Rivers Siddons
- What is the Lowcountry and how important is it to the story of Sullivan's Island?
- What is the Gullah culture and how did it impact the psyche of Susan Hamilton Hayes and her siblings? And, did Livvie Singleton's legacy have an impact on Susan's daughter, Beth?
- Would you say that it was better to have come of age in the sixties or the nineties and what are the principal differences in those decades from Susan's point of view. Is she right?
- Susan makes a claim that the world has been made better and safer by the people of her generation. What do you think?
- Susan's relationship with Livvie is a powerful one as is her relationship with her own mother. Would you say that her mother's weakness was as valuable to her as Livvie's strength? And, would you describe Livvie and Susan's mother, MC as frustrated by their positions in life?
- Susan's father, Hank is a complicated man. Would you say that, if he were a young parent today, that he could be convicted of child abuse? And, why didn't Marvin Struthers have him arrested for it in 1963? How have attitudes changed about parent's rights to discipline their children?
- Susan's grandfather, Tipa is a classic example of a southern gentleman of his day. Was his bigotry understandable for the early 1960's? Discuss how the love Susan felt for Livvie grew against the narrow mindedness of her grandfather. Do you think that she loved her grandfather and indeed, did she love her parents?
- Should Susan have taken Tom back? How realistic is forgiveness and reconciliation in the face of blatant adultery of Tom's variety? How well did she handle explaining it to Beth and then coping with her relationship with Tom and Beth?
- Why did Simon Rifkin play such a long lasting role in Susan's life? Was she naïve about him or were they fated to be together? Is there such a thing as fate?
- Is it dangerous to love someone with limits on the amount of affection and loyalty you intend to allot them? What happens when Susan and Maggie talk about being stingy with affection and commitment?
- The south is known for its ghost stories and tales of the inexplicable. Do you think that the mirror described inSullivan's Island was believable? And, if not, who among you has had something happen that defied scientific explanation?
- How critical is complete truth in a marriage? Is anyone ever completely honest with someone who holds the immediate stability and the near future in their hands? When is lying permissible? And, when a lie is exposed, how forgiving are you?
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
I loved being virtually transported to the beloved Lowcountry, "experiencing" life in such a rich, vibrant and soulful culture. Very nicely written.
Just an awesome, awesome, awesome book! You practically feel like you are there experiencing life growing up with the Hamiltons and also with them as adults. Livvie is one of my favorite characters of all time. I cried like a baby at the end when she and Susan talk! This book was full of every emotion you can think of and then some. Loved it, it's a MUST READ!!
Loved the characters and the obvious love the author has for Sullivans Island and Charleston and the history of the area and it's people. Ms. Frank writes about family drama with the perfect balance of tenderness and humor. If you are not lucky enough to live near Sullivans Island, as I am, you will certainly want to visit this uniquely beautiful place after reading this book.
I liked this lowcountry beach read. To me there were to many references of the Catholic traditions, myself not Catholic, did not understand many of the references. The story as a whole is a good story and I will read the follow up novel.
Loving, touching, real, and expressive without offending the senses. I'm hooked on Ms. Frank's works.
Dorthea Frank has been my favorite author since I read her first book. I am reading Sullivans Island over since it has been a long time since I read it. I want to read Return to Sullivan's Island, and I feel I will enjoy it more with the first book fresh in my mind. I love Sullivan' Island and all of her books. They make you laugh out loud, sometimes cry, and keep you coming back for more.,
Okay, I'll admit it, I bought this book because my name is Sullivan and since I am dabbling in genealogy, the title intrigued me. It turns out it was a wonderful visit to Lowcountry in South Carolina and a seemingly authentic peek into a family's sweet and sour history. You don't have to be from Lowcountry to draw a parallel to the Hamilton family. I'm sure if Livvie were alive today, she would say, "ya'll read this book 'eah."
This book is fabulous. Not only is it funny it is a great history lesson as well. This book has the funniest sex scene I have ever read. It is nothing short of hilarious!
Dottie Frank is an excellent story teller. Very entertaining; her charracters are so real, you miss them at the story's end.
Great book to read. Dorthea Benton Frank is one of my favorite authors. I read this book many years ago, and had to read it again. I loved the story and the characterizations of the people in the people, both in Susan's past and present.
This book and the sequel, Return to Sullivan's Island, are wonderful books about growing up and finding yourself in a family house full of mystery and ghosts. I loved every minute of reading these books. This book reminded me a bit of The Help because of Susan's love for her black maid, Livvie, but it this book was about love of family and the struggle to Susan's struggle to be her own person. I would highly recommend this for a light reading experience, but don't miss Return to Sullivan's Island, too. These are books I will remember and treasure.
Perfect beach reading! I found a donated copy, started to read it, misplaced it, and bought it after midnight on my Nook. (Then I found my lost copy!) There are several sub-plots in this well-written novel about a large Southern family. I get the feeling the author has sequels and pre-quels in mind. While I wouldn't recommend this book for club discussions, I would recommend it for a lazy day, something to read when one is under the weather, or just when you want to be occupied with something you don't want to think through. I would read other books by Dorothea Frank.
I had read 'Full Of Grace', and had looked forward to this book. However, it was not as good as the first one. I didn't like the flashbacks at all, and the chapters were too long. I hope to read 'Plantation' next, and hope it is more interesting than this one.
I loved reading about the lifestyle on Sullivan's Island. Southern living has to be the most interesting lifestyle around & this book tells of it well. The characters Ms. Frank gives us are a joy to read about. Great to read on vacation!
I thought this was an interesting book and had a hard time putting it down. I just wanted to see what was going to happen next. It is a great read for the beach!! Can't wait for the next one.
Loved this book because the main character Susan didn't live a fairy tale life. It was real, with real problems we can all identify with. The descriptions were so thorough that I felt like I lived in Charleston although I've rarely left New England. Look forward to visiting Sullivan's Island someday. Dottie Frank will have a list of people waiting for the release of her next book, I'm hoping there will be a sequel to Sullivan's Island. I want to read more about Susan.
I REALLY ENJOYED THIS NOVEL..NOT ONLY WAS IT FUNNY, BUT HEARTWARMING AS WELL... I FELT REALLY CONNECTED TO THE CHARACTER 'LIVVIE' SHE WAS TRULY THE 'GREAT MOM' OF ALL MOMS..WHAT A FAMILY, AND TO HAVE OVERCOME SO MUCH HEARTBREAK AND TRAGEDY, WAS OVERWHELMING TO SAY THE LEAST, BUT WITH THE HELP OF SUSAN, LIVVIE AND MAGGIE, THEY ALL SURVIVED...BUT I DO WONDER WHAT EVER BECAME OF THE TWINS??? LOOK FORWARD TO READING MORE FROM MS BENTON FRANK.
A friend who knew I was a fan of Pat Conroy recommended this book to me, and I found that it had a similar flavor to his work, but also a unique style all its own. I thought the relationships between Susan and her daughter Beth and Susan and her sister Maggie were very true to life. I enjoyed the 1963 sequences with the 14-year old Susan more, but the 1999 story was compelling, and I found myself wanting to spend more time with the characters after the end, even though the conclusion is satisfying.
I thoroughly enjoyed reading this smart, humorous tale by Dorothea. I thought that it was a well put together book. Most of the reviews I have read have said how hard it was to follow when she jumped from the past to the present(visa versa). I thought it added variety and kept me interested thoughout. I say Good work!
WOW! The big writers really gave her a boost with all their praise so I was skeptical about how I would like it but the praise was justified. She has got a fresh voice and not a cliche Souther feel. I want the next book to come out soon because, even thought the book is thick, it is a fast read. It is obvious they could make a major movie out of this book. Somebody like Susan Sarandon would be great to play the lead!
Having my own knowledge of Catholic guilt and being the oldest of a family of 9 I could relate to much of what Maggie and Susan experienced even though I’m a Midwesterner. Thankfully I had a happy childhood. Many of the ideas brought up in the book gave me pause for reflection.
Love her work and we'll read them all!
More, please!Sullivan¿s Island was my first experience with this author. But it certainly shan¿t be my last! I am now anxious to read more of her work. And speaking of more, I wish there had been more of this story, too. I wasn¿t ready to be done with these characters. (Yay! According to the author¿s website; she has a sequel to this book, just out!)Ms. Frank grew up on the island, so her descriptions are heartfelt and full bodied. The sound of the surf washes through your mind as you read, while wiggling your own toes in the `sand¿. You can¿t help but inhabit her characters, loving and fussing with your siblings, helping each other to bear up under the tyranny of a dysfunctional father and a weak mother, each deriving strength from the one solid presence in the house, Livvie, the housekeeper (now there¿s a character I¿d like to read more of!). Seeing how the bonds forged in childhood, held steady through time for some of the siblings; how others escaped the island, but realized, in the end, the bonds still held. Told in the voice of the main character, Susan Hayes, in alternating chapters of the present (1999) and her child/young adult-hood (1963), it is a story of a family of children who `come up¿, as opposed to being `brought up¿, on Sullivan Island, South Carolina, in their old family home, named Island Gamble. And the story of the two oldest sisters - Susan, who moved off the island, but lives nearby with her husband and daughter, and Maggie, who inherited the old home place, and is raising her family there. The relationship of the sisters is especially well written, in both their youth and maturity.Lest you think this nothing but a maudlin tale, it is not. It is a vibrant story. Of choices and the lessons learned from them. Of learning to be the best that you can be, regardless of circumstances, or a difficult start in life. Of joy.
One of the best books I've read in a long time. The characters were great fun to read about and were such interesting realistic people. Will definetly read more by Benton Frank. This is one of the few books I will keep and read again.