Untangling Karma: Intimate Zen Stories on Healing Trauma

by Judith Ragir

Overview

"This book is at once a love letter to Zen practice and a critique of late twentieth century American Zen. Judith inspires us to investigate our own karmic knots, and in the middle of this suffering, she invites us to walk quietly down to the neighborhood pond and take a cooling dip in the moonlight." —Natalie Goldberg, author of Writing Down the Bones, and many other books

Untangling Karma is a memoir of accepting and healing personal trauma, both on and off the meditation cushion. Author Judith Ragir, an American Zen teacher, has used her spiritual practice to overcome anger and self-imposed isolation and become more loving. 

In Buddhism, the personal and the systemic are interwoven. If we are to heal from trauma, we need to find and face our deeply held, often hidden pain. Because we have been raised in a society of greed, aggression, and confused values, this is something we all must do, regardless of our ethnic or racial background.

Ragir lets fall the stereotypical cool, calm Zen teacher’s demeanor to reveal her complicated, emotional self. She discusses what she has done to find greater inner peace as well as the personal impacts of transferring an Eastern philosophy onto her Western mind and applying a male-inspired monastic model to herself as an American woman, Jew, and mother. Untangling Karma is at once a love letter to Zen Buddhism and a critique of turn-of-the-century American Zen.

If we can be bold when facing our personal pain and traumatic experiences, says Ragir, and curious about our own karmic histories, then we can help build a more inclusive, healing-focused, 21st-century Buddhism.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781948626699
Publisher:	Monkfish Book Publishing Company
Publication date:	07/05/2022
Pages:	280
Product dimensions:	6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x (d)

About the Author

Judith Ragir is a Dharma teacher in the Zen lineage of Katagiri Roshi. She cofounded Clouds in Water Zen Center in St. Paul, Minnesota, where she was the Guiding Teacher for nine years and is currently Senior Dharma Teacher Emeritus. An accomplished artist, Ragir dedicates her quilting and calligraphic work to the exploration of Zen. Her short pieces have appeared in many anthologies, including Zen Teachings in Challenging Times, The Hidden Lamp, The Path of Compassion, and Receiving the Marrow. She Lives in Marine on St. Croix, Minnesota.

Table of Contents

Introduction: A Landscape of Healing ix
Chapter One: World War II and No-Self 1
Chapter Two: Dock Retreat 27
Chapter Three: Untangling Karmic Knots: A Tale of Healing 44
Chapter Four: “Wash Your Bowl” 81
Chapter Five: “Do Not Misuse Sexuality” 93
Chapter Six: Inner Fortitude 141
Chapter Seven: Malissa and the Legacy of Enslavement 152
Epilogue 229
Glossary 243
Works Cited 249
Acknowledgments 253
About the Author 255

What People are Saying About This

From the Publisher

"Judith Ragir, a Zen teacher, a mom, a Jew, a sexual assault survivor, splits open her heart and fearlessly pours out the hate, internalized anti-Semitism, and unquestioned rule-following that blocks her love. This book is at once a love letter to Zen practice and a critique of late twentieth century American Zen. Judith inspires us to investigate our own karmic knots, and in the middle of this suffering, she invites us to walk quietly down the backyard steps to the neighborhood pond and take a cooling dip in the moonlight." —Natalie Goldberg, author of Writing Down the Bones, Long Quiet Highway, Three Simple Lines, and many other books

"This is not the book you’d expect from a Zen teacher and senior Zen priest. Full of pain, passionate intensity, and brutally honest, Judith Ragir’s writing shows us what Zen looks like under the hood, in the context of an American woman’s lived experience of trauma, abuse, and intergenerational pain….An uplifting, and searing, read." —Norman Fischer, Zen teacher and author of Sailing Home, The World Could Be Otherwise, When You Greet Me I Bow, and other books

"Untangling Karma deals head-on with the pain of living, with hurting and being hurt—and with the many dimensions of healing. Here are hard-earned lessons in which Judith Ragir recognizes and recovers from several strands of trauma woven intimately into her life, personally and multi-generationally, based on gender, race, and religious prejudice." —Jan Chozen Bays, author of Mindful Eating, The Vow-Powered Life, Mindfulness on the Go, and other books

"Untangling Karma is a stunning book that weaves together Zen, Judaism, family, trauma, healing, and much more. Judith Ragir opens her heart and writes with remarkable honesty. I felt she was speaking to me as an intimate friend. You, too, will be encouraged by this courageous woman." —Susan Moon, author and editor of many books, including The Hidden Lamp, This Is Getting Old, What Is Zen?, Being Bodies, and Not Turning Away

"In Untangling Karma, Judith Ragir does what virtually no other Zen teacher has done: show us each piece of her own brokenness and healing. And she does so with great insight, candidness, and transparency." —Tim Burkett, author of Nothing Holy About It and Zen in the Age of Anxiety

Editorial Reviews

Ragir is utterly fearless in her vulnerability and in the curiosity with which she hones in on the ‘karmic knots’ in her life.” ―Lion's Roar

“...connecting some tough or unsavory aspects of the real world with the meditative, inner reality Ragir encountered through Buddhism are the book’s most consistent strengths. The prose is clear and unadorned throughout, which deepens the sense that the author is sharing a warts-and-all spiritual odyssey. Likewise, the mindless, blissful tone of so many accounts of Buddhism is pleasingly absent here. Ragir delivers plenty of critiques of the Zen path—which makes her embrace of it all the more intriguing to read about. A plainspoken, engaging, and very realistic account of a Buddhist journey.” ―Kirkus Reviews

“Ragir’s writing is cordial, insightful, and wise. Delving into difficult topics including racism, sexism, antisemitism, and past abuse with equanimity and honesty, she addresses how larger legacies affected how she was treated in her family and society. Her spiritual and emotional dissatisfaction with patriarchal hegemony, and with divisions between her family and the Black women who were housekeepers in their household, impacted her openness to spirituality and her views of white privilege. Seeking reconciliation and Buddhist stories from women, this is a book about feminist religion and the humanity of sexuality, childbearing, and motherhood.” ―Foreword Reviews

"Judith Ragir, a Zen teacher, a mom, a Jew, a sexual assault survivor, splits open her heart and fearlessly pours out the hate, internalized anti-Semitism, and unquestioned rule-following that blocks her love. This book is at once a love letter to Zen practice and a critique of late twentieth century American Zen. Judith inspires us to investigate our own karmic knots, and in the middle of this suffering, she invites us to walk quietly down the backyard steps to the neighborhood pond and take a cooling dip in the moonlight." —Natalie Goldberg, author of Writing Down the Bones, Long Quiet Highway, Three Simple Lines, and many other books

"This is not the book you’d expect from a Zen teacher and senior Zen priest. Full of pain, passionate intensity, and brutally honest, Judith Ragir’s writing shows us what Zen looks like under the hood, in the context of an American woman’s lived experience of trauma, abuse, and intergenerational pain….An uplifting, and searing, read." —Norman Fischer, Zen teacher and author of Sailing Home, The World Could Be Otherwise, When You Greet Me I Bow, and other books

"Untangling Karma deals head-on with the pain of living, with hurting and being hurt—and with the many dimensions of healing. Here are hard-earned lessons in which Judith Ragir recognizes and recovers from several strands of trauma woven intimately into her life, personally and multi-generationally, based on gender, race, and religious prejudice." —Jan Chozen Bays, author of Mindful Eating, The Vow-Powered Life, Mindfulness on the Go, and other books

"Untangling Karma is a stunning book that weaves together Zen, Judaism, family, trauma, healing, and much more. Judith Ragir opens her heart and writes with remarkable honesty. I felt she was speaking to me as an intimate friend. You, too, will be encouraged by this courageous woman." —Susan Moon, author and editor of many books, including The Hidden Lamp, This Is Getting Old, What Is Zen?, Being Bodies, and Not Turning Away

"In Untangling Karma, Judith Ragir does what virtually no other Zen teacher has done: show us each piece of her own brokenness and healing. And she does so with great insight, candidness, and transparency." —Tim Burkett, author of Nothing Holy About It and Zen in the Age of Anxiety

From the Publisher

2022-03-11
A memoir depicts a spiritual odyssey through the lens of Zen Buddhism.

Ragir opens her book by confessing that she’s spent 50 years “enamored” of Buddhism. She begins on a broadly autobiographical note, telling readers about the long shadow cast on her family, particularly her father, by World War II and the Nazi persecution of Jews. Then the focus widens to narrate the author’s growing fascination with Buddhism. Ragir is frank about her own personal issues, everything from asthma and childhood trauma to alcohol and drug addiction, always framed in the context of how the practice of Zen Buddhism transformed her life. Her personal stories range from the early years in her journey, when she was “burning with Zen ardor and the desire to know the truth about life,” to her more seasoned decades as a Zen practitioner and teacher. The settings of these personal glimpses include the author’s childhood in Chicago, a Buddhist retreat in the Catskills, and a Zen monastery in Minnesota. But the author steadily keeps the spotlight as much on her inner journey as on her life’s different roads. “We cannot recover by psychology alone,” she writes about the tendency of 12-step-style recovery programs to urge a connection with a higher power. “This much larger sense of life was immeasurably enhanced by my Zen practice.” These kinds of links connecting some tough or unsavory aspects of the real world with the meditative, inner reality Ragir encountered through Buddhism are the book’s most consistent strengths. The prose is clear and unadorned throughout, which deepens the sense that the author is sharing a warts-and-all spiritual odyssey. Likewise, the mindless, blissful tone of so many accounts of Buddhism is pleasingly absent here. Ragir delivers plenty of critiques of the Zen path—which makes her embrace of it all the more intriguing to read about.

A plainspoken, engaging, and very realistic account of a Buddhist journey.

Kirkus Reviews