Table of Contents
Preface xi
Part I The Couch of Willingness
1 Three Mile Beach 3
2 The Visit 6
3 Bonnie and Clyde Go to Jail 12
4 Getting Here 17
5 Sandy Lake 28
6 Come Down Here, Mr. Pond 34
7 I Don't Want to Go to Rehab 43
8 Good Luck, Mr. Pond 58
9 The We Surrender Addiction Recovery Society 68
10 A We Surrender Christmas 82
11 Harold 92
12 Leaving Today 100
13 Coming Back 109
14 Crazy Mike 114
15 Rock Bottom 128
16 I'm Done 136
17 Mission Possible 145
18 Checkout 152
19 Crazy Mike Walks Again 158
20 Cloverdale House 166
21 A Second Chance 181
22 Pay Day 200
23 Piss Test 207
24 Back to Work, Week Two 214
25 The Last Date 222
26 The Last Bender 231
27 Death's Door 238
28 Fifty-Six 245
29 The Universe Cuts Me a Break 250
30 Your Honour 258
31 The Fraser Regional Correctional Centre 262
32 Christmas 282
33 Life Goes On 287
34 The Prodigal Father 292
35 Spiritual Enlightenment 295
36 I Know That Walk 303
Part II Searching For New Treatment
37 The Party 311
Maureen:
38 The Real Story of Addiction 323
39 Shaming and Blaming Only Makes the Problem Worse 325
40 Abstinence Doesn't Mean Success 330
41 How AA'S Standard of Success is Now the Culture's 334
42 Most Doctors Don't Know How to Treat Addiction 338
43 The Modern Theory of Addiction 341
44 Drugs Approved to Treat Addiction 345
45 Could Vivitrol Work for Mike? 349
46 Motivational Interviewing 351
47 Community Reinforcement and Family Training (CRAFT) 356
Mike:
48 Why I Relapsed 365
49 Why Me? 367
50 Training Doctors in Addiction Medicine 377
51 My Relationship With AA 381
52 Our Relationship With Alcohol 385
53 The Challenge with Evidence-Based Treatments 387
54 Hope 389
Acknowledgments 391
Endnotes 395